Shadows of the Past

Part 18

(Y/N POV)
You rub your eyes as you walk down the hallway to one of the conference rooms.  It’s 10 minutes to noon and you are on your way to your third meeting of the day.  This next one was only scheduled for half an hour but you were convinced it could be handled with an email.  You settle into your seat, opening up your laptop while you wait for everyone else to arrive. 

You still have a few minutes until it starts so you take our your phone and check it but still no text from Loki.  Maybe he forgot, you think to yourself, he’s probably busy with training and meetings too.  You start to type out a message but Tony and Fury walk in so you put your phone away.

The issue you needed to discuss is resolved quickly, like you knew it would be but the meeting drags on as people start to bring up other topics.  You can’t help it when your mind wanders back to this morning. When the alarm on your phone started to beep you turned it off as quickly as you could.  You didn’t want to wake Loki, he looked so cute as he smiled a little in his sleep.  His arms were still wrapped around you, holding you against him tightly. It was no small feat to slip out of his grip, he groaned a little but you managed to get out of the bed. Halfway out of the room you stop, taking your phone out of your pocket so you can take a quick picture of him sleeping.  He was too adorable, he had rolled over and replaced you with a pillow.  You left his room quietly and went to yours to shower and get ready for work. 

Fifty eight minutes later, the half hour meeting is finally over.  You take out your phone again as you leave the conference room and still nothing from Loki.  It’s hard to text and walk while you are holding your laptop and files so you decide to call him.  It rings over and over, finally going to voicemail.  Just as you are about the leave him a message Hills waves you into another meeting room so you hang up with a sigh.

Three hours later you finally have a break in your schedule so you decide to use it to go find Loki. You can’t understand why he didn’t text you.  He had to have seen you called him, even if you didn’t get to leave a message.  Was he mad about something?  You aren’t sure what you could have done so you head to the Library knowing that’s where he spent all his free time.

(LOKI POV)
You wander aimlessly through the Library, not able to focus.  None of the books seem interesting to you but you eventually pick one and take it to your usual spot in the back corner.  You sit on the couch and open the book but no matter how hard you try, you can’t stop thinking about Y/N. 

You had woken up in the middle of the night and the feeling of having her in your arms was perfect.  You had fallen back asleep easily, cuddling against her.  But when you woke up this morning, she was gone.  You knew she had work but she didn’t say anything.  She had just left, did she regret what had happened?

You are lost in thought, staring at the book but not absorbing any of the words when someone taps you on the shoulder.  You jump a bit and putting the book down, you look up and see Y/N smiling at you.

“You ok, Mischief?” she says giggling a bit.  “I didn’t mean to scare you but you didn’t answer me when I called your name,” she told you as she sat next to you.

“I-I didn’t hear you,” you said. 

“Loki, what’s wrong? How come you didn’t text me?,” she asks, putting her hand on your knee.

“What?” you ask her confused. 

“You were supposed to let me know what you wanted to learn how to make next.  Remember?” she asked you looking as confused as you felt.

“I have no idea what you’re talking about Y/N,” you told her honestly.

“It was in my note...” she told you.  “Didn’t you read it this morning?”

“You-your note?” you suddenly start thinking hard, had there been a note?

She moves closer to you, “Oh my god, Loki did you think I just snuck out?”

You nod, feeling a bit embarrassed.  “I didn’t see a note, I thought... I thought you had changed your mind.  That you regretted last night,” you told her.

“I’m so sorry, I didn’t want to wake you so early.  My first meeting was at 8:30 so I left you a note on your fridge.  Loki, look at me,” she says putting her hand on your cheek and tilting your head up towards her.  “I’m sorry, I promise I’m not going anywhere,” she leans in and kisses you.

You put your hand on the back of her head, kissing her deeper.  When you finally separate, she smiles at you and asks if you feel better. “Hmm, I’m not sure.  I think you might have to do that again,” you tell her.  She giggles and kisses you again. 

Her phone goes off and she turns off the alarm, “Ugh... I really don’t want to go but I have a meeting in 15 minutes.”  She leans against you, “When you get back to your room, don’t forget to look for that note, ok?  I left it on the fridge.” 

You kiss her cheek, “I have to see Thor & Stark about something but I will find it as soon as that is over."

She says goodbye and leaves, you put the book you had been pretending to read away and head off to your meeting.

When you finally get back to your room you head straight to the kitchenette, but there is nothing on the fridge.  You look around a bit confused and after a few more steps you kick something small the skips across the floor.  You walk to the other end of the space and pick up the magnet.  Now where is the note, you wonder out loud.  Walking back towards the fridge you the corner of a piece of paper sticking out from underneath it.  You wave your hand and use your magic to pull it out from under the fridge.  Now you feel horrible for doubting her, for thinking the worst straight away.

     Morning Mischief,
     I’m sorry I had to leave so early but today is going to be crazy.  I just wanted to tell you that I’m really glad we talked last night... and that you are incredibly comfortable.  It was so hard for me to get out of bed this morning, I could have stayed there all day with you.  I can’t wait to see you later, I should be free around 7.  I was thinking maybe tonight I could try and show you how to cook something a little more complicated than mac & cheese.  Let me know if there is anything specific you want to make :)

     See you tonight,
     Y/N

You smile reading the note and immediately text Y/N to tell her you found it.  She texts you back and says you need to get better magnets.  You laugh but agree that might not be a bad idea.  After some thinking, you text her something you want to try making tonight.

(Y/N POV)
You finally close your laptop and text Loki that you are on your way.  You can’t believe some stupid magnet almost ruined things between you and Loki just when they were getting started.  You shake your head thinking about how ridiculous the whole thing had been.  You really wanted to make sure you talk to Loki about coming to you when things are bothering him.  You wish he had just texted you this morning to see what happened when he woke up alone. 

There was also something else you needed to talk to him about.  Sarah was going to be back from her suspension in a few days and you were nervous to say the least.  You felt horrible for hitting her, no matter what she said to you that wasn’t an excuse.  You really wanted to talk to her, to tell her that you had screwed up and you know you had been a horrible friend to her recently.  That conversation with her would have been tense enough but now there was a new wrinkle... Loki. 

The last thing you wanted was for her to find out about you and Loki from someone else.  If you were being honest, you would rather she just never found out but you knew that wasn’t realistic.  The more you thought about it the worse it all made you feel.  You and Sarah might not be anywhere near close as you used to be, and you may never be that close again but you just broke one of the major rules in a friendship... do not date your friend’s ex.