Shadows of the Past

Part 16

(LOKI POV)
After Y/N left you decide to make yourself a cup of tea before heading to the library for a bit.  While you are waiting for the water to boil you heard voices in the hall.  You don’t think much of it, its early but a lot of the team wakes up around now to head to the gym.

The voices suddenly sound much louder and angrier.  You recognize them immediately, it’s Sarah & Y/N.  You turn off the stove and run quickly into the living area, you can now start to make out what they are fighting about.  You swing your door open and hear Y/N & Sarah yelling at each other.  You look down the other end of the hall & see Steve, Thor & Nat coming towards the fight.

You step out of your room but before you can say or do anything Y/N shouts at Sarah. “No, you shouldn’t be. Loki deserves to be with someone who is going to love him as much as he loves them.  You were right about him, he is funny and sweet and a good listener. He’s a good person and you had no right to treat him like that,” she says angrily.

You can’t believe what you just heard but you don’t have anytime to process it because Sarah steps towards Y/N and shoves her, hard.  You watch wide eyed as Y/N takes a swing and it connects with Sarah’s nose.  Steve moves past you and takes Sarah by both of her shoulders, hauling her down the hall and into his room. 

You walk quickly to Y/N and take her by the wrist, gently pulling her into your room.  Closing the door, you then lead her to the couch without letting go of her. You kneel in front of her and try to get her attention but she doesn’t seem to hear you.  She looks so angry and upset, you just want to calm her down and make sure she is ok. 

“Y/N?” you ask again, this time squeezing her wrist slightly to get her attention.  She looks you at your slowly, “Let me see your hand,” you say quietly.  She nods and lifts it in front of you.  Taking her hand in yours, you notice there is some blood on her knuckles so you bring her to the sink. 

She watches you wash the blood off and she starts to look a little calmer. “It doesn’t look like any of the blood is yours, you got her really good,” you say with a small smile.  She nods, opening and closing her hand while it is under the cool water.  “Does it hurt?” you ask her.

“Yea,” she said quietly.  She has shifted from looking angry to sad & almost embarrassed. She doesn’t make eye contact with you when you offer her some ice.

“Do you wanna sit?” you motion to the couch.  She is standing in the middle of the kitchen area, holding the ice to her hand. She doesn’t respond but she does sit with you on the couch.

“Y/N,” you say but she still doesn’t answer.  “Y/N,” you put your hand on her cheek and tilt her head up so she is looking at you, “Are you ok?”

She shrugs and looks down.  “Talk to me,” you tell her.  You move closer to her and she leans into you, her head on your chest.  You slip one arm around her and gently rub her back with your other hand.

"How much of that did you hear?” she asks, mumbling into your chest.

You think for a second but now doesn’t seem like a good time to lie to her. “I heard you tell Sarah she doesn’t deserve me... and then everything after that,” you tell her.

She sighs but doesn’t say anything so you continue, “Y/N, I want to thank you for that.”

She pulls away from you & looks up. “Thank me?” she asks.

You nod, “For standing up to Sarah about me. I don’t know if you meant all of that but... but no one’s ever really defended me like that before.  Even Sarah didn’t when we were together.”

“Oh,” she says and quickly looks away. “I- uh, I’m sorry Loki.  I know I can be stubborn and hard headed but I try to admit when I’m wrong.  And I was wrong about you,” she tells you as she plays with her hair nervously.