healing

once again

After dinner, I quickly went back upstairs, staring at the door of my bathroom, so tempted to purge but the doors were locked and my bedroom door was wide open with Dr. Staple and Nurse Aird in the next room.

I crept out of my room to see Wilhemina and as I stopped at her door, I saw Diane watching me from her room. I quietly knocked on Wilhemina's door and she opened it, dressed in a white top and purple sweatpants. Her long hair was down which was weird to see but she looked gorgeous.

"y/n, is everything okay?"

"C-can I come in?"

"Yes of course."

I walked into her room and looked down at the floor.

"I'm sorry. I just need a distraction after dinner."

"I understand. Come sit."

I nodded and sat on her bed, seeing she was reading a book and picked it up.

"Jane Eyre. Good book."

"I've already read it three times," she says, sitting beside me. "I'm really happy for you, y/n."

"Thank you Wilhemina."

Suddenly, we both see a slip of paper slide under the door. We both look confused and I go to pick it up. Wilhemina remains on the bed as I unfold the paper.

My eyes widened and I dropped the paper on the ground, opening the door and storming out into the hallway. I see Diane walking back to her room.

"HEY!" I yelled, making her turn around with a smirk.

"I see you got my note," she says.

I get up close to her face, laying a hard smack across it. She holds her cheek in disbelief and I hear Wilhemina gasp from the door.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?! I DON'T LOVE YOU DIANE. I NEVER WILL. IN FACT, I FUCKING HATE YOU. YOU- YOU ASSAULTED ME, THREATENED ME, I COULD GO ON. YOU ARE A PSYCHO CRAZY BITCH. LEAVE ME ALONE!"

By now, almost everyone had opened their doors and watched this whole thing unfold. Diane had tears streaming down her face as she still held her cheek. Dr. Staple rushed over to me and pulled me away from Diane.

"y/n, come on."

"YOU'RE A SELFISH FUCKING BITCH. I'M TRYING TO GET BETTER AND ALL YOU WANT TO DO IS FUCK ME. YOU HAVE ISSUES DIANE YOU REALLY DO." I screamed, trying to get lose from Dr. Staple's grasp.

"FUCK YOU DIANE. FUCK. YOU. Let go of me!"

Dr. Staple finally released my arm as I went back to my room, slamming the door and lay on my bed. Out in the hallway, Nurse Aird walks to the concerned Wilhemina, with a confused face.

"What was that about?" she asked, shocked. Wilhemina leans over and picks up the paper that was on the floor and reads it.

"I'm guessing this."

"You can't hide from me forever baby girl.
-Mommy <3"

Nurse Aird sighed and walked to Dr. Staple who was beside Diane as she was curled in a ball against the wall, sobbing. Carol hands it to Ellie. She reads it and holds in front of Diane.

"Diane, what the hell is this?" Diane grabs the paper and crumpled it up in her shaking hand, throwing it to the side. Xandra carefully walks over and swiftly takes it from the floor, going back to her room. Dr. Staple helped Diane up as she sniffled and continued to cry. "Come on," she sighed, bringing her back to her room. Nurse Aird knocked on my door with a worried expression.