healing

hope to change

Cordelia crawled over me as I run my hands over my own body. She lowers her face to me, kissing my lips, soon making her way to my neck.

"Cordelia please," I whimpered, making her pause.

"...You're drunk. But nice try," she whispered in a deep voice as she started to get off of me. I pulled her arm and pouted.

"No please," I begged.

"y/n, we are not doing this," she says in slight shock.

"Please Cordelia. I want to make you feel good. Please,"

"y/n no. You need to sleep."

I just huff as tears surface my eyes and throw the covers off myself, getting dressed into the pajamas she had offered before. She watched with a sorrowful yet confused expression.

"Yeah. You're right. Goodnight Cordelia," I mumbled, quickly leaving the room.

"y/n."

Before she could further protest, I shut her door and blinked away tears as I knocked on Wilhemina's door.

"Who is it." she asked with a stern voice.

"It's me."

There was silence until I heard the sound of her cane against the floor before she opened it. Looks like she was crying too. I just moved to her, wrapping my arms around her waist and rested my head against her chest. She hesitated before taking me in her own arms as well.

No words were exchanged. Our embraces said everything. Every word was silently poured out by each other's touch.

"Come to bed baby."

I let go of her and we both walk to her bed she hands me her cane and I rest it against the bedside table. We both remained silent as we shifted under the covers and just continued to hold each other.

"...You know how much I love you y/n. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to be so... insensitive and-"

"It's okay. You've never let me down Mina. I don't see it happening anytime soon. I love you too."

She just sighs with relief and gently kisses my forehead.

"Goodnight my love," she whispered.

"Goodnight Mina," I sniffled.

**

Soon enough, Mina was quietly snoring and I looked to her beautiful face, kissing her cheek before I shifted from her embrace and stepping off the bed and out of the room. I quietly went to my room to hear terrible noises from the bathroom. I open the door a crack and see Zoe holding Madison's hair back as she was completely yacking in the toilet.

"Oh shit Madison are you okay?"

"Can't wait for next time!" she yelled, throwing a fist in the air before letting more out. I raise my eyebrows and nod.

"Yeah okay," I said. I closed the bathroom door before sitting on my bed and taking my phone out, calling my old friend Callie. After a few rings, I hear a groggy voice.

"Hello?"

"Callie?"

"y/n?"

"Hey," I said with relief.

"y/n, where the hell have you been? Oh my god I missed you so much. How- how are you doing?"

"I missed you too. Uhm- I'm in a bit of a... uhm a mess right now. Do you think... I could stay with you for a bit? I'm sorry to be a bother but you-"

"y/n, I always told you to let me know if you needed a place to stay. I know it's been a while but you're my sister. Of course you can."

Tears were spilling from my eyes and I sighed with guilt but relief.