Your Dark Stars - Highschool K/DA x Male Reader

042 - Feeling Lost...

"I don't know Kai'Sa. I really wish I did."

She tries to offer me a smile but it eventually fades into a frown, "It's hard to convince someone otherwise when they are mad or upset. Just... give her time but don't let her think for a second that you are walking away from her. So just keep trying."

I then shake my head, "I am terrified."

"Why?" she steps closer to me, "Is it because-"

I shake my head, "Not because of how it happened or why. It's just I... this has happened to me before. A massive fight that leads to something just like this."

"I'm sorry, I can imagine you don't want to go through it again," I look at her as she offers me a smile, "We just have to be strong and make sure to get the best out of it. Alright?"

I nod again, "I won't stop trying," especially not after everything she told me.

We continue to walk to school with some idle chatter. My mind is still locked on the situation and I can't stop feeling bad, even when I should be the one being absolutely pissed off. I didn't even get a chance to beat it into them. 

Reaching the gates, just a little bit in front of us I spot Akali, "Hey."

She turns around as Kai'Sa also greets her, "Goodmorning, Akali."

"Hey... you two," she then pulls her gaze back to her front as she continues to walk at a faster pace.

"She is going to avoid me, isn't she?"

Kai'Sa nudges against me, "Chin up, okay? She'll come around."

"And if she doesn't?"

She furrows her brow at me, "(Y/N)..."

"Sorry I am just spoiling both our moods," she lifts her hand to rub my shoulder, then finally rests it on it with a smile.

"It will be okay, it has to work out somehow. I know that if it is something that you need to do that you will be able to do it," she then pulls away as she looks at Akali, "I'll try to talk to her, you guys have music today right?"

I nod, "Yeah..."

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Five students were missing today, they didn't show up to school and the police are trying to find them. It doesn't look good and it just raised tensions even higher.

She was talking to everyone else just fine, even Conner and Eric. It's like... she is purposely distancing herself because she thinks she will just make it worse for me. I don't know what she is thinking but I can't get near her.

It feels impossible.

During class, she hasn't looked at me once or tried to talk to me. I wanted to ask Eric about it but I don't like him and he doesn't like me. Further along the day, I couldn't get into the group as easily so I left it to Kai'Sa to talk to her. I ended up spending some time alone thinking about what to do, I didn't want to bother Evelynn or Ahri with this.

But they heard about it from Kai'Sa already.

Now? I am sitting in the classroom next to Seraphine as we wait for the rest to show up. She then twists her lips to the side as she asks, "You look upset... are you okay?"

I shake my head, "Feel like I am losing someone."

"Is she angry at you?"

"She blames herself for something she didn't do," shaking my head, "I can't talk to her, I can't get near her and I don't think I will be able to do anything about it. It sucks."