Natigilan siya pero agad din siyang nakabawi at hinila ako papasok sa comfort room. "Pasok na." Utos niya sa akin pero hindi ako kumibo. I glared at him, but he didn't seem moved. What?
I wanted to hear him first. I want to know.
I am dying to know.
"Did I do something wrong with you?" I asked pleading him for an answer. I can't help but to stare at his face. He can't even look me in the eye. He seems troubled at the same time.
"Baka hinihintay—" He was trying too hard to ignore my questions. I sighed and looked away trying to calm myself. Hindi ko na alam. Sobra-sobra na 'yung inis ko sa kanya. I am trying to understand why he is acting this way . Naisip ko pa nga na baka busy siya. Na baka kailangan niya ng time sa sarili. I am thinking a lot of excuses but the reality keep on slapping me harder. He's ignoring me.
He did not come because he never wanted to see me.
Pero bakit?
"It hurts so bad Pau. If you're not interested anymore, you could just tell me." I snapped because I couldn't take it now that he's in front of me. He sighed as his stare softened. "You told me we are friends. You could have spared that friendship!" Dagdag ko pa. He opened his mouth but closed it again. Hesitating to say a word.
Nakalilito.
I was thinking where did I go wrong.
May mali ba akong nagawa?
"Mamaya na tayo mag-usap." He said and pushed me inside the bathroom. Tahimik akong pumasok at ginawa ang dapat gawin. Naging mabilis ang mga kilos ko dahil baka bigla na lang siyang maglaho. Napahinga na lang ako nang maluwag nang makalabas ako at nakita kong nandoon pa rin siya sa gilid ng pinto at naghihintay sa akin. Nagtangka ulit akong magsalita pero hinila niya lang ako pabalik sa arena. We stopped on the entrance. "Finish your thing first. Hihintayin kita dito." Saad niya bago ako itinulak papasok. Huminto pa ako at tumitig sa kanya pero nginitian niya lang ako na parang sinasabing hindi siya aalis. Kahit labag sa loob, tumalikod ako at lumakad palayo sa kanya.
The loud noise covered my ears as soon as I walked back on my seat. I bet, the competition is about to start. Sobrang tagal ko sa labas kaya ineexpect kong nagsimula na pero mali ako. "Where did you go?" Adi asked the moment I sat beside him. Sakto namang lumabas ang mga swimmers kaya nawala ang atensyon niya sa akin. I shook my head and looked at the swimming pool. Muntik na ako doon.
Iniikot ko ang paningin ko sa benches. This is a competition among girls kaya karamihan ng manonood ay lalaki. Galing pa silang iba't-ibang schools base sa suot nilang uniform. I didn't know that university swimming is popular.
Shana turned her gaze towards us when they walked outside the dressing area. She waved her hand before removing her varisty jacket. Half of the crowd are cheering over her. Mukhang lahat ng taga-ISU ay kilala talaga ng maraming tao.
I focused on the game. Shana's good but she still needs practice. Hindi ko alam kung anong kulang pa sa kanya pero lamang doon ang kulang sa confidence. Iba kasi ang confidence sa harap ng maraming tao at confidence sa tubig. She was confident with other people watching her but she seems anxious before diving into the water.
