Pau and I couldn't bear to wait longer so we held a private wedding ceremony with our families, Felip, Stell, Justin and Josh in between our tour. Sa sobrang engrande kasi ng tunay na kasal, it was scheduled this year which is a year away since our families have talked kaya nagdaos kami ng isang intimate na seremonya, walang guests, walang engrandeng gown, ako lang at si Pau, sa harap ng Diyos. We wanted to be married fast because that's how we badly wanted to be a family once again. Afterall, doon din naman talaga ang punta. Hindi lang talaga kami makahintay.
"Happy New Year, love." Pau greeted and hugged me from behind. Ngumiti ako saka mabilis na lumingon para bigyan siya ng isang mabilis na halik sa labi.
As if he anticipated my move, he deepened the kiss, never letting go. "Pau, I don't want to have a baby bump on my wedding dress." Naghahabol ng hingang saad ko nang tuluyang maghiwalay ang labi naming dalawa. He stared at me in the eye and smile at me.
"We're already married," he uttered, his voice a soft whisper that carried the weight of a thousand promises. "I love you." He whispered. "As long as I wanted to make you pregnant right now, I couldn't go beyond without your consent." He chuckled and kissed me on my forehead.
Just like that, days passed by. We traveled again and came back a month after. May projects si Paulo habang may expansion naman ang hospital namin.
"Hi pretty lady!" Pau greeted as he walked inside my office. Awtomatiko akong nag-angat ng tingin mula sa screen ng laptop ko para titigan sa mukha ang asawa kong mukhang pagod na pagod.
"Congratulations!" Bati ko saka tumayo para salubungin siya ng isang mainit na yakap.
"Shall we go?" He asked and pushed me lightly to stare at my face. Sumimangot ako saka siya tinitigan pabalik.
"I had a lot of paper works to do."
I was expecting Paulo to throw a fit like I did but he just smiled at me. "Do your thing... I will wait for you." He then laid on the couch and closed his eyes, sleeping.
"I can go home alone. Umuwi ka na." I hissed and crouch down to caress Pau's face. He smiled, eyes still closed. "You looked so tired. You won't be able to sleep here comfortably."
"I can bear all things... as long as I am with you." Bulong niya pabalik. He opened his eyes, making our gazes meet. "Go. I'll be just here."
Kahit labag sa loob ko, I had to go back to work. Hindi ko na kasi 'to pwedeng ipagpabukas dahil tumatambak lang. I'll end up being swamped more and more. Baka araw na ng kasal ay may mga nire-review at pinipirmahan pa akong mahahalagang papel.
"Love." Tawag ko kay Paulo mula sa swivel chair ko after a lot of hours. He did not respond. Mukhang tulog na tulog. He was really exhausted. Hindi naman kasi ngayon lang ang event nila. They had to go through a long process. Kabi-kabilang training, fittings at meeting pa. In the middle, may mga mall show at ilang business pa silang ginagawa. Entertainment industry is often viewed as a job to get an easy money but it's not just as everyone expected. It also requires passion.
Nilinis ko muna ang gamit ko bago tumayo at lumuhod para haplusin si Paulo. He was sleeping soundly dahil inaalog-alog ko siya pero hindi man lang siya naalimpungatan. Halos mag-uumaga na rin kasi kaya nasa gitna na siya nang pagtulog. Ni hindi ko na napansin ang oras. Kawawa naman ang baby ko, pagod na pagod. "Love," tawag ko sa kanya saka bahagyang sinampal ang pisngi niya, still trying to wake him up.
