Upon hearing the news, my heart run wildly. My head started spinning and my hands trembled in fear. My legs suddenly become weak... I fell onto the floor making my palm and legs wounded from the shattered pieces of glasses. I should've reacted but I couldn't feel anything at all. It felt like my body became numb. Diretso pa ang balita pero parang wala na rin akong marinig. My system is collapsing even with just a thought that Pau is in danger.
I carried the last ounce of courage in me. I stood up to pick up my phone in the bedroom and typed the number of our own private chopper to call for emergency. Hindi ko pwedeng gamitin ang chopper ng ospital for my own private reason.
"Please... please." I chanted while trying to type. Sobrang shaky ng kamay ko kaya hindi ko mapindot nang maayos ang screen ng phone. Idagdag pa ang blurry na vision ko dahil sa pag-iyak. I didn't even noticed when I stared crying. I was too clouded to even observe my own emotion.
"Damn!" I hissed saka hinampas ang sarili kong kamay... trying to at least stop it moving on its own.
Before I could type for another number, my phone rang making it echo in the whole unit. I answered it after a second.
"Elle!" Sigaw ni Shai mula sa kabilang linya pagkasagot na pagkasagot niya Nang mga oras na 'yun, hindi ko na naisip kung saan niya nakuha ang number ko. After all, she's also friends with Pau. Baka nag-aalala lang din 'yung tao.
"Shai... si Pau..." I whispered and cried my lungs out. Hindi na ako makahinga sa sobrang pag-iyak.
"Calm down first. I'll go to you. Hintayin mo ako, okay?" That's the only thing I heard before she hang up. Hindi ko alam kung ilang minuto ang lumipas. Nakatulala lang ako sa screen ng television pero wala naman akong maintindihan.
I just stayed as is nang makarinig ako nang doorbell na i-ni-expect ko na kaagad na si Shai kaya mabilis akong tumakbo sa front door. Hinihingal na mukha niya ang bumungad sa akin. Mukhang nagmadali siya. "I'm sure he's okay." That's the first word she uttered trying to comfort me but my mind can't be calmed right now. Syempre, si Pau 'yun e. My mind wouldn't be at ease as long as I couldn't see him in front of me, doing well.
"May sugat ka!" Naaalarmang sigaw niya nang mapansin ang mga dugo sa katawan ko. Noon ko lang napansin ang mga sugat ko sa binti at hita. Mayroon din sa kamay at braso. May mga naiwang part pa ang ilan pero hindi ko 'yun alintana.
"Tara muna sa hospital. I'm sure Pau's doing just fine. Mas mag-aalala siya kapag nakita kang ganyan." She uttered as if she was some kind of deity who sees the future. I wanted to believe too. I wanted to be optimistic but I was born to be in the field of science. I wouldn't believe in something unless, I've seen it myself.
"No, we have to go." Matigas na saad ko saka siya hinila. Buong panahon niya akong pinipilit na magpadala sa ospital but my eagerness seem to act up. In no time, we reached the ground floor. I insisted on driving but Shai never let me. Siya ang nag-drive noon.
On the way to the helipad, we got stuck in the road. Nagkataon na inabutan kami ng stoplight. Gusto ko na nga agawin ang manibela sa kasama ko pero hindi ko magawa. I dial Kuya Dave's phone but I couldn't reach it. Napabuntong-hininga ako saka tumitig sa labas ng bintana. That's when I noticed that it was raining heavily. I tapped my fingers on my bare legs and sighed in frustation. Sanay ako sa emergency surgeries kaya sanay akong makakita ng mga nag-aagaw buhay pero iba pala talaga kapag malapit sa'yo ang nasa bingit ng panganib.
