There's no such thing as perfect marriage because a relationship is composed of imperfect people. It's not something that can be found... it is something you make and something that you have to keep making everyday. It's true because after two years of marriage with Joy, storms starts coming our way.
Dad died so I had no choice but to leave Joy alone. Nope, it was just some excuses... I neglected her. That's the truth.
"Damn you asshole. I entrusted my sister to you but this is what you just do? Fuck it! Fuck you!" Galit na galit na sigaw ni David sa akin. He got the wrong idea pero wala akong sinabing kahit na ano. Hindi ako lumaban. Because I deserved to be beaten.
Pero si Joy... sa halip na magalit, hinawakan niya lang ang kamay ko at sinabing hindi ko kasalanan... "It will always be you." She assured me washing all my insecurities away.
She's the reason why I tried harder... to become a better person that she deserved.
"I made it love!" Siya ang kauna-unahang tao na sinabihan ko. Sobrang saya niya para sa akin.
Pero hindi naging madali. Akala ko kapag official na kaming grupo, ayos na. Pero mali ako dahil matapos ang isang taon wala pa ring nangyayari. Nahihiya na ako kay Joy... iniaasa ko na lang lahat sa kanya. She's having a hard time being a working student because of me.
"I'm sorry." Bulong ko sa likuran niya isang gabi.
"Don't you dare say that again." Sagot niya saka ako nilingon. "You're basically implying that I made the wrong decision to support you."
"Never regret anything that makes you happy." That was the motivation that kept me from going. Sa panahon na wala akong tiwala sa sarili ko, maniniwala ako sa kanya na naniniwala sa akin.
Until the turning point of our group came...
"Kahit anong mangyari, deny that you are in a relationship, okay?!" Sigaw ni manager sa amin. It was our biggest interview na ibo-broadcast sa national television... a critical decision to me.
"Ang tanong ng madla, single ba kayong lahat?" Everyone in the audience shouted in excitement.
"Opo." Justin answered but I was there on the side, smiling in silence. That's the least I can do for my Joy... not admitting nor denying everything.
I became even more busy... that I started to miss our time together. I know that she understand but I can't help to be guilty. I couldn't even see her leaving in the morning... I couldn't bring her to work... or to school.
"Where are we going?" Tanong niya nang isang araw ay nagplano ako ng date naming dalawa. She just finished her exams habang ako, nagkaroon ng lakas nang loob na i-postpone ang mga schedule namin para sa gabing 'yun.
"Love?" Naiiyak na tanong niya nang makita ang lugar. I did it myself in a place na komportable para sa aming dalawa.
"I love you." Bulong ko sa tenga niya habang pareho kaming nakatitig sa kawalan. I liked being with her because I find peace... indeed, she's my home.
But I guess, life isn't really full of rainbows... we got into a huge fight the night of our mall show.
"Pau... you know my story... of all people..." She's badly hurt. I can it on her eyes.
I know that it was a wound to her and I was technically putting a salt on it right now but there's nothing I could do... her mom is dying and I don't want her to live in regret... I don't want her to be guilty with a sin that she never wanted to have.
