Adore S.M |Prequel to Devoted|

fourty

|Shawn|

|14th January 2017|
|10:02am|

Sitting on the top bench of the gymnasium bleachers all I could do was stare aimlessly forward at the empty room.

Resting my chin on my closed hands, I lent forward in my seat as I felt this overwhelming feeling of loneliness.

It had only been a week since I last saw or spoke to Elle and it was driving me insane. I missed her more than I ever thought was possible. The absence of her voice, her touch and her presence was deafening.

Basketball practice had ended half an hour ago. Liam had invited me to go for food with him and the rest of the guys but right now all I wanted was time with my own thoughts, even if my mind felt quite empty right now.

I had a towel wrapped around the back of my neck still, it having been there to soak up the sweat. I was shirtless, in only my shorts and trainers, from getting too hot during practice. I was just too lazy to put it back on.

I don't know how much longer I could do this whole giving Elle time thing. I mean it's only even been a week. But I will wait forever if I have to if it means I get her back.

I'll just forever kick myself everyday for doing what I did. Elle didn't deserve that in a million years. All she's ever been is kind and loving to me. At the very least I owed her that too.

As the growing thoughts of Elle twisted in my mind I heard the sounds of the heavy doors of the gym pull open, followed my voices of a big group of girls.

Glancing over towards the door, I watched as the cheerleaders walked in to start their practice, all dressed in shorts and different sorts of tops.

Flicking my eyes back down to the ground, I immediately knew somewhere in that group Amber would be and the last thing I wanted was for her to see me and come over.

With my eyes focusing on my tapping foot against the stand, I heard the most purest laugh that was medicine to my ears. I could recognise it anywhere and without fail it'd always bring a smile to my lips.

Slowly lifting my head up I searched around the room until finally my eyes fell onto Elle. She had her hand over her mouth trying to quieten her laugh as it echoed around the room. I'm not sure why she was laughing but I'm assuming Heidi said something to make her laugh as she stood next her.

As a smile teased the corner of my lips my eyes gazed only at Elle as I watched her curls fall effortlessly down her face each time she turned her head.

I had no idea Elle had even tried out for the cheerleading team. Goes to show how much you can miss of someones life in just one week. How much more was I going to miss?

"Right girls, start stretching and then we'll get to practicing our new routine" I heard Amber shout, instantly making my eyes roll.

With my intent stare on Elle I had forgotten the fact that her being on this team means she's uncontrollably going to have to deal with Amber and being around her. I just hope Elle's going to be okay and not too uncomfortable.

As my eyes still remained on Elle, she was yet to realise my presence in the room. I wasn't surprised though, I was high up at the back of the room. To be honest I'm not sure if I want her to see me. I guess I do because I hope she'd come and talk to me, but then I also don't want to interrupt her enjoying herself. It was refreshing too see. It made me feel better.

Even if it weren't with me, I was happy enough to see her happy.

Still resting my chin on my hands I began to bite the tip of my thumb in anticipation as I watched Elle stretch her legs apart before bending down to touch her toes, her back facing me. As her grey bicycle shorts tightly shaped every part of her I immediately felt my shorts become super tight all of a sudden.

Biting the bottom of my lip, I felt my throat become dry and my body turn hot the longer I watched her.

"Fuck" I quietly cursed to myself, under my breath, as I felt myself becoming more and more restricted, it becoming unbearable uncomfortable now.

Grabbing my top off the bench, beside me, I took the towel off from around my neck before slipping the top over my head. I couldn't stay here much longer in Elle's presence. She was driving me insane and she couldn't even do anything about it. Not having her touch was torture.

Standing up, I pulled my gym bag onto my shoulder before throwing my towel over the other. As I began jogging my way down the stairs of the bleachers my eyes glanced back towards Elle and now her and every other girl in the room were looking at me, obviously just realising I was here.

"Hi girls" I politely gave a tight smile, putting my hand up for a short wave, as I continued to jog to the bottom of the stairs.

"Shawn, you should stay" I heard Amber's obnoxious voice interject as I reached the floor, about to continue my way towards the doors.

Stopping in my tracks, I tightly gripped onto my bag strap, as I didn't even consider turning around to look at her.

However, I straight away looked to my left and straight at Elle. I could read the hurt and sadness on her face from Amber's comment as she stood her uncomfortably looking down at the ground, biting down on her bottom lip as she fiddled with the tips of her fingers.

Feeling a frown pull at my lips I felt so much guilt and sorrow for her, hating that she had to feel like this. Feeling every part of me weaken in ache of seeing her hurting I walked over towards her before gently holding her chin between my fingers and lifting her head for her eyes to meet mine.

As my eyes travelled across her face I could already see the small tears falling delicately down her warm cheeks.

Leaning down, I placed a soft longing kiss against her forehead, trying my best to reassure her without too much pressure I knew she wouldn't want me to make a scene infront of everyone.

"You look amazing" I whispered, giving her a small comforting smile before letting my hand fall from her hand and turning away and walking straight out of that room.

As soon as I left the room I felt myself immediately gasp for breath, feeling like I had been holding it during that whole moment.

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So here's another chapter for you all! My heart physically aches that Shawn and Elle aren't together and Shawn's sweetness just kills me.

Also can we please just talk about Mr Harry Styles? That man is an artist at its finest. Out of this world album. My favourite has probably got to be 'Little Freak'. What's yours?

Anyway be sure to let me know your thoughts and don't forget to comment and vote!