Leaning against the railing I scrolled aimlessly through instagram as I waited for the rest of the team to get back from Starbucks with our drinks. We were currently at the airport waiting for our gate to open so we could fly to the basketball convention being held in Los Angeles.
All the guys were buzzing and hadn't stopped talking about this trip for weeks but still, even at this moment in the airport, I still didn't feel this excitement they all had. All my mind could focus on was Elle and it was driving me insane how she was all I could think about.
It had been just less than three weeks since we had officially called things off and, while it was my idea, it was killing me inside. I don't know if it was killing me because of how much I miss her or knowing that I hurt her. I won't ever forget the look she had on her face in the car that night when I told her that we should break up. It even hurt me to say it, but I ultimately knew it was the only right thing I could do by her.
As I stood here scrolling through the feed of my instagram I felt my heart thump against my chest as my skin immediately burned against my body. A photo of Elle had popped up and all I could feel was my heart aching at the sight of her.
But not only was my heart physically aching at seeing her face, but my head was suffocating with paranoia as she posed side by side with the last person I could of dreamed of her spending her time with while I'm away.
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I could just feel my whole body tense up and boil out of nothing but utter jealousy and anger. I mean I understand that I hurt her and I ended it but it was such a slap in the face for her to have her ex over, who I was already threatened by and, by my own wrongdoing, led me to kiss Amber in the first place and then it was another thing to publicly post it. She must have known I was going to see this.
Maybe it was meant to hurt me and maybe this was the least that I deserved.
"Shawn, why must you have made your drink order so confusing? The hot girl at the counter must of thought I was clinically insane from amount of time it took me to remember your order" Kyle complained as I looked up to see him and the rest of the guys walking towards me.
"A vanilla and oat milk latte is hardly a riddle Kyle" I rolled my eyes, my tone more harsh than I would have liked as I slipped my phone into my back pocket.
Catching eyes with Liam he gave me a slightly confused look at my tone as he met me and passed me my drink.
"You alright?" Liam asked, as he rested, beside me, against the railing.
I just nodded as I blankly stared out into the airport, raising my drink to my lips and taking a short sip.
"You still thinking about her, eh?" Liam asked, causing me to clench my jaw as all I could think about was that photo.
"Well put it this way, she's currently with her ex so" I obnoxiously shrugged, pushing my fingers through my hair in frustration before lightly squeezing on the tufts of my curls.
"You're kidding me?" Liam exasperated as I turned to him to see a surprised look spread across his face, his eyes narrowed at me in confusion as his cup rested against his lips mid sip.
"Fuck, I wish I was" I scoffed, letting out a low chuckle in disbelief as I lightly shook my head.
"I know you like her a lot Shawn but for this trip away you need to just need to stop thinking about her, no matter if that means sleeping with every girl in California" Liam replied, wrapping his arm over the back of my shoulders as lightly shaking me.
"I couldn't think of anything worse" I tiredly chuckled, feeling so drained from the overwhelming amount of emotions I had endured over the last few weeks.
"You know Shawn, I would never have picked you out to be the sort of guy who gets so hung up on a girl" Brandon inserted as he, along with Kyle and Chris joined our conversation.
"Me neither" I sighed, giving a light shrug as I continued to sip on my latte.
"Especially when you probably had the shortest relationship in history" Chris joked, making me let out a short laugh, as well as the other guys, as I rolled my eyes at him before giving him shove against the shoulder.
"You guys just don't know this girl" I sighed, letting out a deep breath as I dug my empty hand into my front pocket
"And you need to pretend like you don't either" Brandon added, making a pit of angst form in my stomach as I dropped my eyes to the floor.
Feeling Liam give my shoulder a comforting squeeze I glanced to my side at him to see him giving me a tight smile.
"Come on, looks like our gate's just opened" Liam said, giving me a pat on the back before our whole team began making our way to the gate.
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So here's another chapter for you all! I know it is quite short but I didn't want to use Elle's pov in the same chapter. The next chapter will be a little different but it is to express what Shawn and Elle have both been up to separately while Shawn is away in L.A.
Be sure to let me know your thoughts and don't forget to comment and vote!
