(Irene's pov)
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"Ang hirap maging single mom" i said and my tears starts to fall
"Huh?" He asked
"Gusto kong mabigyan ng maayos at maginhawang buhay yung anak ko pero napapabayaan ko sya" i said
"Ayokong maulit yung nang yare sa hawaii" i said
"Anong nang yare?" He asked
[Flashback 2years ago]
It was our 2nd week here in Hawaii. Medyo nabobored na si Gracia pero wala naman akong magagawa.
Madami akong trabahong dinala dito. Kelangan ko pa ding tulungan si Luis sa pag mamanage ng company. He's too young to take all the responsibility.
*Conference call
"Mom look oh i made a scarf, nag crochet ako oh" Gracie said
"Anak not now, nasa meeting ako" I said
"Oh? Sorry" she said
...........
"Mom, nag paint ako oh, look its me and you" She said
"Gracie can't you see im in the middle of something " i said
"Ok" she pouted
Sa bawat pag sasabi ko ng ganon at pag alis ni Gracie sa harap ko nafefeel ko yung tampo.
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"Mom oh kain kana" she said but she slipped and fell on the ground, natapon yung dala nya sa paperworks ko at hindi ko napigilan ang galit ko.
"Lintek naman" i shouted
I look at her and she looks so shock
"Gracie naman, pwede ba? Nakikita mong nag tatrabaho ako, please leave me alone kahit ilang oras lang wag mo muna akong guluhin, look what you do, sa halip na ilang oras mo lang akong wag pansinin, ilang araw kong uulitin lahat to" i said
"Mo-mom" gracie said trying to hold my hand
"Go to your room" i said
"So-sorr...." She said
"I said go to your room" i shouted and slightly pushed her
I saw her tears rolled down to her cheeks...
Nagiguilty ako sa ginawa ko, halos isang buwan kong hindi kinausap si Gracie. Andaming umiikot sa isip ko, kung pano ksmi nag hiwalay ni Greggy. Kung pano yung buhay namin mag nanay. Kunh pano ko sya bubuhayin dito sa Hawaii.
"Gracie" i knocked on her door
I opened her room but she's not inside. Sa sobrang hindi ko sya pinansin, hindi ko na din napansin na dalawang araw na syang wala sa bahay.
Wala akong matawagan dahil wala naman akong kakilala dito.... Sinubukan kong mag kalkal sa kwarto nya and i saw a scarf and a painting. She cuts the scarf and spilled the painting with a lot of paint.
I tried to look for her but I can't found her....
Mabuti na lang may filipinong nakakilala sa kanya at tinulungan sya. It was Raquel and Sergio....
Hinatid nila sa bahay si Gracie and they told me what happened.....
"Anak" i said
She just ignore me and go straight to her room. I can hear her sobbing.
"Ano bang ginawa mo Irene?" I asked myself
I was about to knocked on her door...
"Why are you crying?" Manang Imee asked
She's talking to her mama...
"Nothing mama, im watching some drama kasi hahaha" Gracie laughed
"Oh? Sya mag pahinga kana" Manang said
"Bye Mama" Gracie said and dropped the call
"Gracie" i entered her room
She hide under her blanket....
"Talk to me" i said
"Talk to your buisness partners and to your paperworks" She sobbs
"Gracie?" I said and pulled her blanket
"Get out" she said and pushed me
"Anak please im sorry" i said
"I said get out mom" she said and pushed me
She slams the door and i just sit on the front of her door....
"Hindi mo ako kakausapin? Mga 1month din?" I asked
"Go to your thing mom" she said
"Ano bang problema mo?" I asked
"Why don't you asked yourself?" She said
I just realized what ive done for the past few weeks.
"Anak im sorry" i said
"Talk to mommy na please" i begged
"Sige wag mo kong kausapin, hindi ako aalis sa harap ng pinto nitong kwarto mo" i said
"Ang hirap mo kasing intindihin mom eh, akala ko gusto mo lang kalimutan si Dad, bat parang pati ako unti unti mong kinakalaimutan?" She asked
"I am working for us both" i said
"You're working for yourself, para makalimutan mo yung dahilan kung bakit andito tayo sa Hawaii, mom please prioritize me naman kahi isang beses lang sa isang linggo" she said
"Anak?" I asked
"Why you can't appreciate this stuffs? I am doing this for you din anman eh" i said
"Eh mommy hindi ka naman ganyan noon eh, you always prioritize me even though your busy, you cared to listen on my chikas, used to eat the food that i prepared, used to appreciate some cute stuffs that i made" she said
"Pero bakit nung nag hiwalay kayo ni dad hindi mo na din ako pinansin? Nabawasan na din ba yung pag mamahal mo between me and daddy?" She asked
"Anak im sorry" i said
"Mommy naman kasi, ikaw at ako na lang yung magkasama dito, tas parang nag hihiwalay na din tayo, hindi na kita nakakausap, parang hindi nga kita kasama eh, like parang ako lang yung andito sa hawaii tas ikaw naiwan sa Philippines " she said
"Ang hirap kasi anak maging single parent" i said
"Mommy naiintindihan ko naman yon pero ang laki laki din kasi nung naging impact na nag hiwalay kayo ni dad at nag migrate tayo dito, tas pag dating natin dito parang wala ka naman" she said
"Anak" i said
"Choose between me or your work" she said
"Pag po yung trabaho nyo yung pinili nyo, uuwe na lang po ako kay Lala" she said
"Anak you know naman na mas pipiliin kita, please open the door" i said
She opened the door and hugged me. She burst into tears, sa totoo lang naaawa ako sa kanya. Hindi talaga naging madali para sa kanya ang pag hihiwalay nsmin ni Greggy. Pero pinipilit nyang tanggapin...
BINABASA MO ANG
A Mother's Love
FantascienzaA mother who's trying to have a bond with her daughter.
