"Ang lalim naman ng iniisip mo" pag yakap ni Greggy sa likod ko
"Gising kana pala" sambit ko
"Natulog ka ba?" Tanong nya
Umiling na lang ako at humigop ng kape
"May problema ba?" Tanong nya
"Wa-wal" Greggy cut me off
"Wala? Kahit meron" sambit nya
"What if i fall out of love?" Tanong ko
"What?" He uttered
"Like looks what happening on our family, Greggy?" Sambit ko
"I-i know but, you fall out love? Why?" Tanong nya
"Greggy look, we're hurting our children without us knowing, Gracie hurt herself because of you, she's mentally unstable because of us and now Alfonso, I can't lose them just because i am f*cking trying to fix us" sambit ko
"Alam ko namang may mali ako, at pinag sisisihan ko yun but please? How can you easily fall out of love?" Tanong nya
"You got cindy pregnant again! Ako yung nag mumukang kabit sainyo" sambit ko
"Irene please" sambit nya
"Let's just end this, i am f*cking tired fixing our family" sambit ko
"That's it? Isusuko mo lahat? Dahil lang don?" tanong nya
"Let's just be contented on what we have, you can be a father but not a husband anymore" sambit ko sabay talikod at balik sa kwarto.
Gracie's still sleeping and i am trying not to make noise while sitting on the floor and crying. I never fall out of love but I don't want to see our children like this.
Mas gugustuhin ko nang hindi kami mag balikan ni Greggy ang mahalaga maayos ang mga anak ko.
GRACIE
I woked up feeling nothing but my arm still hurts. Wala na si Mommy at daddy sa tabi ko so i tried to look for them at pag lingon ko nakita ko si Mommy na nakaupo sa sahig.
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I saw her holding a cutter and slowly putting it on her wrist.
"Mom" as i tried to stand up, nakatayo naman ako at naka hakbang without my tungkod but i fall.
"What are you doing?" I asked
Inagaw ko yung cutter at tinapon palayo sa kanya. I saw her wrist and there's already a blood.
"Mommy" i cried
"Whyyyy?" I asked her, tulala lang na parang walang nararamdaman na kahit ano sa paligid nya.
"Mommmmmy" i shouted, Kuya Alfonso enter the room
"What's happening here?" He asked
"Mom!" He shouted
Binuhat nya si Mommy at inupo sa kama. Tinulungan nya din akong tumayo at mag lakad pabalik ng kama.
"Get the first aid kit please" i said
Inabot naman ni kuya ang first aid. Nilinis ko lang ang sugat ni mommy. Tulala lang sya until magamot ko ang sugat nya.
"Mom" i said
She looked at me, we have eye to eye contact pero iniwasan nya din kagad.
Humiga lang sya, binantayan lang namin sya ni kuya hanggang sa makatulog.
"Want mo ba bumaba?" Tanong ni Kuya
"N-no i want to stay with mommy, but can you please make a breakfast? For us?" Tanong ko
"Oh sure dalhin ko na lang, sa veranda?" Tanong ni Kuya
"If it is okay then yes" sambit ko
Lumabas ako sa may Veranda at nag antay kay Kuya.
He just cooked some fried egg and langgonisa.
Kumakain kami at sobrang tahimik ng paligid namin.
"Im sorry" pag basag nya sa katahimikan
"So-sorry? For what?" Tanong ko
"For what happened, i know kung hindi ko kayo sinagot sagot ni Mommy hindi naman tayo magiging ganito, im sorry" sambit ni Kuya
"This is not your fault kuya" sambit ko
"Sorry, kasi sinigawan at sinaktan kita kagabi" sambit nya
"It's okay, naiintindihan ko naman" tugon ko
"I love you bunso" pag yakap nya saken
"I love you and i always will kuya" pag halik ko sa pisnge nya
"I heard mom and dad kanina, mag hihiwalay na sila ng tuluyan" sambit ni kuya
"Wh-what?" Tanong ko
"So-sorry Grace, hindi natin sila mapipigilan" sambit ni Kuya
"Why?" Tanong ko
"Mom really do fall out of love" sambit niya
"Kuya" i said
"I know how much you want to fix this family na, please stop hoping ading" tugon nya
"You're just hurting yourself with your own expectations" dagdag nya
"I will talk to dad na lang kuya, i want our family back na, kahit hanggang birthday ko lang" sambit ko
"Grace" sambit ni kuya
"Kuya, dalawang taon na akong nag celebrate ng birthday ko na ako lang mag isa, panahon na din naman siguro para maranasan ko yung buong pamilya ano" sambit ko
He cupped my face and kissed my forehead.
BINABASA MO ANG
A Mother's Love
Science FictionA mother who's trying to have a bond with her daughter.
