I got used to it.
Being overshadowed,
Hiding in shame.
Manipulated into what he wanted,
Conditioned to forget who i was.
An empty shell
Used to drowning,
But calling it love.
I was a cold gray flame
Set ablaze by smoke and mirrors.
How suffocating it was,
Climbing out of the hellfire
I was consumed by.
How devastating it became,
insecurities destroying my essence.
I prayed to make it out,
To live to see tomorrow,
While the world i knew
Came crashing down on me.
And then he walked into my life,
Straight out of my dreams.
He doesn't roll his eyes,
Won't tear me apart.
He smiled and waits for me,
When i open up,
Strip down my walls,
And tear the chains away from my heart,
When i stand before him
Naked and bearing my soul.
He reminds me when i need it most,
I am his
He is mine
And he is so worth my entire lifetime.
[2/14/2021]
