A Chapter Named C

1.54 am

i want to break something
throw things across the room
drive my fist into the wall
shatter glass on the floor
tear everything to shreds
scratch until there's no skin
slide the blade until i bleed
i need to relieve myself
this pain won't go away
this fear won't leave me alone
this anger won't let go

i just want to be held

[3/15/2022]