My therapist asked me today
If it would be okay with me
If he started texting Mira again
Or started seeing other women
I was silent for a moment
But i said no
Realistically, no
It's not my decision
We are just friends now
He doesn't have to tell me anything
He is free to do as he pleases
But then i told her
I would still not be okay
Because that means she never really left
Of course i don't want to see him
With any other woman
I don't want to find out that
He's been talking to her this whole time
Again
She was surprised with my response
Realistically no, it wouldn't matter
But i would still care
I would still cry myself to sleep
Hold myself just like he used to
And stay there until i felt better
[5/2/2022]
