you told me she wanted to say goodbye
before she left the state again
i asked for a public place
i asked for no physical contact
you didn't tell me she was eight minutes away
you didn't tell me when she got there
you didn't text me at all for over an hour
you only texted after she left
what happened to keeping it short?
why did you run to her outside?
how did you "forget" your phone for that?
why did you let her hug you goodbye?
was it really her that initiated it?
did you really just walk around the building twice?
or did you invite her in your hotel room?
do you know what my mind jumped to?
do you understand me at all?
you can't tell me this older "therapist" woman
wants to say goodbye to you
and then disappear for over an hour
i don't care that my texts annoyed you
you didn't care that no texts scared me
i was sitting here at work
surrounded by kids and forcing a smile
while my mind ran wild
thinking you invited her in and ignored me
so you can fuck her in peace
in the bed i woke up in this morning
[4/5/2022]
