Now Or Never ~HSMTMTS

Tears

POV Carlos

I didn't know it could hurt that bad. I felt terrible for days when I found out that Michael Jackson is dead. I thought for years that I would marry him.

But he didn't leave because of me. Seb did.

I didn't know it could hurt that bad. I need tape. A lot of tape. Somehow it must be possible to take all the broken bloody pieces of my heart and tape them together.

Or sew them together.

Or glue.

Or an alive Michael Jackson.

This can't be it. We were supposed to marry and have a lot of puppies and one stick insect because I've wanted that since I was a little toddler.

Look what's happening to me when Seb is not there to comfort me! I'm already back in my obsession with Micheal Jackson. I swore that I wouldn't do that again!

I need my blond boy. I need to hold him. I need him to tell me that everything will be alright. I need him.

I look at myself through the mirror. I chose a black outfit today. It was like all my wearable clothes disappeared. Along with my heart. Along with Seb.

A tear escapes my eye.

"Carlos, you have to go to school in ten minutes," my mum yells from downstairs. "I'm sick," I shout. "What happened?" she shouts back. "I broke something," I state.

My mum runs upstairs. "What?!" she says shocked and she looks at me. "What is broken?" she asks. "My heart."

"Oh no, what happened?" she asks. "You didn't kill another mosquito, did you? Cuz, darling, that's fine. You are not a murderer when you do that," she states.

"No, mum, I'm not five anymore," I state. My mum pulls one eyebrow up. "It is murder when you kill a mosquito, the poor animal also deserves to live, right?!" I state.

My mum sighs. "But that's not the point. I can't go to school. I'm sick. My heart broke into a thousand pieces," I say.

My mum sees my face. "Oh no, it wasn't Seb, was it?" she asks. I close my eyes. "It is Seb," I say. "He broke up with me," I say. My mum hugs me.

"It's alright. He was only your first boyfriend. I'm sure there will be a lot more," she says. "No!" I shout. "I don't want another boyfriend, I want Seb! And I want puppies, and one stick animal," I state.

My mum frowns. "Can I please stay home today?" I beg my mother. "No, not today, today you'll go to school and you'll show Seb that you're an amazing boy," she says.

It's not like that. He can't... Nevermind. She won't understand.

I grab my shoes and walk to my bike.

POV Seb

It was the right thing to do.

It was the only thing to do.

The tears are streaming down my face again. I haven't slept tonight. I was doubting what I should've done.

I had to do this.

"Sebastian, wake up," I hear my mum's voice from the hallway. I wipe the tears from my face. "Coming," I state and I stand up.

I walk downstairs where my dad is eating his breakfast. I take a seat at the other side of the table.

"Why are your eyes red?" my father asks. "You aren't a weakling who cries during the night, are you?" he asks.

I shake my head. "Don't lie," my father states loudly. "I don't lie," I say.

"Eat your egg and drink your milk," Dad says. I look at the egg. It doesn't look very tasty. I think it didn't bake long enough.

"I think the egg is a bit undercooked," I state. "You question your mother's bake skills?!" Dad asks angrily.

"No, no, I just looked at my egg and I was wondering if I could bake it a bit longer," I say. "You little-," my dad starts but my mum cuts him off with a strict look. "You eat what is given to you. You should be happy that you got food."

My dad stands up and walks toward me. He stands over me and raises his arm and makes a fist. "You will eat it, or else..."

POV Big Red

I walk to Ashlyn's house and knock on the door. Ashlyn's mom opens the door. "Hi, Big Red, I didn't expect to see you so early in the morning," she says and she lets me in. "Yeah, I and Ashlyn are going to school together," I explain.

"Let me get her," Ashlyn's mom says and she walks upstairs. I stay in the entrance hall.

Today is important. I'm gonna ask it. I want a second chance. I'm gonna ask her. I want to be her boyfriend again. Although last time I messed up pretty bad.

Ashlyn walks down the stairs with a green backpack on one shoulder. She wears mom jeans with a colorful shirt above them. She looks amazing. As always.

"Hi," I say and she smiles. "Hi."

We walk outside to school. It's only a few minutes walking from Ashlyn's house. "So, I actually wanted to ask you something," I say.

Ashlyn looks into my eyes. "Ask away," she says. "Do you think everyone deserves a second chance?" I ask.

"Sure."

"Would you give everyone a second chance?" I ask and I stare into her eyes.

"I think so," she says.

"Would you give me a second chance?" I ask. Ashlyn doesn't reply, she just stares at me.

"Do you wanna go on a date with me?" I ask and I feel my cheeks warming up. Ashlyn smiles.

"Yes."

I thought I should end with something a bit happier than the Seblos drama. I feel so bad for Seb :(

Thanks for reading!!

Love, Anna <3