Now Or Never ~HSMTMTS

The Search

POV Carlos

We decided to skip rehearsal to look for Seb. He can't be far, right? I really hope he's okay. Ashlyn and Big Red are walking with me to Seb's house.

I haven't been here for so long. Seb would never bring me to his house when his parents were home, we would always meet at my place.

Ashlyn and Big Red sense that I'm very nervous and they are walking behind me in silence. I should be very happy with my friends but I feel like I've treated them like shit since the breakup.

We walk to the front door and I stay there holding my hand up to knock But I'm too scared to actually knock. Ashlyn puts her hand on my shoulder to encourage me.

I knock three times at the door and then take a step back.

When the door opens, Ashlyn takes the floor. "Hello miss Matthew-Smith, I'm Ashlyn and these are Big Red and Carlos," she starts.

"We are worried about our friend, your son, Sebastian. We haven't seen him for a long time and we were wondering if you could tell us where your son is right now," she says.

I look into the house and my eyes fall on the little table next to the coat rack. There is a little tray full of keys and a vase with flowers.

But wait, I look better in the vase. Among the flowers is something else. Something metal. A knife.

I know I don't want to know but I must look if I see something red. I look at the knife a bit better and I see that it's soaked in red liquid. Blood.

I swallow and mention that I can't breathe anymore. I shouldn't panic right now. I try to stay as calm as I possibly can after this discovery. Luckily, Seb's mom answers.

"No."

No? Ashlyn asks if she could tell us where Seb is and she says no?

Miss Matthew-Smith closes the door before any of us can ask another question.

I can't hold it anymore and tell Ashlyn and Big Red what I saw. Luckily, I can breathe again when I tell them what I saw but it doesn't really matter. It feels like the knife is just used to stab me in my heart.

It would be ironic, though. Something like Romeo and Juliet. Only now it would be Romeo and Romeo. Although I don't mind being Juliet, it fits my personality.

"Maybe we can take a look in the cow shed?" Big Red suggests. "What if he is just there, doing work?" he wonders. We all hope that. We all hope he still is alive and well.

But the reality is hard sometimes.

We walk in silence to the shed. In the aisle between the two places where the cows are living, we find a red spot.

More blood.

"Maybe it was one of the cows?" Ashlyn tries but the tears are filling her eyes at the thought of the red spot being Seb's blood.

I try to look for other explanations but there is only one that seems real.

Seb is dead.

Guys, I'm so so so sorry. For two things. Firstly for Seb, let's just say spin the wheel had something against him and this was planned for some time....

But secondly, I suck at uploading. I'm very sorry. I know no excuse'll make up with this but I just wanted to tell you the real reason this time.

My life was full of drama and shit the last couple of weeks/months. And while I was going through that it just felt like this, writing the story, was something I had to do. I don't want that. I started writing cuz I like to not cuz I have to.

This doesn't mean that this is the end of the story but it means that I'm not gonna promise things that I can't do.

I understand that I might lose some reads but that's fine by me as long as I keep enjoying writing.

The good thing about this shitty period of my life is that I started writing some new stories which I might upload one day... I'm still not sure.

Anyway, thank you all for reading this and I hope you're doing great!

Love, Anna <3