Matilda h.s

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26/7/17

Matilda

From when I first moved to London and met Florence and Miles as I began to start my own life, I've been trying to get my life what I want it to be and not what everyone expects it to be. My mum has always wanted me to have: a big house, and a good job, but also probably had the rest of my life planned out. That's what my life would have contained until my 18th birthday when I had decided that I wanted to make my own choices with no expectations, no one telling me how to live and what I do. This leaves me to now. I have an apartment that I share with two of my best friends and work at a library and do night shifts at bars. See Mum I'm doing just fine on my own. I don't need you planning out my life.

Growing up I never really knew what I wanted in life. I always looked at it as doing what you want to do or following paths that you would enjoy. Here I am working in a library and working in a bar to earn extra money meaning I could do photography as a hobby. I've always wanted to become a professional tour photographer for artists but I have a life here and I just can't travel. I'd miss home too much. That's why I thought doing it as a hobby would be better, I've always enjoyed taking pictures. Before I left for London a teacher said to me to get a job that I would enjoy and like because if you don't like it you won't enjoy working there. I never really imagined that I would be where I am right now but I can't see myself anywhere else. I have a work family here and if I wasn't here then I wouldn't have Ben to act like a father figure in my life. Seen as my proper father left without a care in the world.

I guess I've always blamed myself for my dad leaving like it was an open door for him to as we didn't care about him which was not true. Since my dad left my mum had always been supportive until she turned to alcohol after she had Tia.

"Matilda stop daydreaming because there are customers to serve!" Ben shouted from the back room.

"Sorry, Ben!" I apologise I have been so out of it lately.

I have known Ben since I started the job but he has always been a father figure since I moved here. He lives about 5 minutes away from the library with his family whom I have met. Marther, his wife, is the sweetest human being in the world. (Don't tell Ben that) they have been like my parents whom I have never had. They have a daughter around my age, maybe older but she works in the big model companies that work with huge celebrities and their collaborations like The Kardashians and more.

"Hey, umm where can I find the romance section?" I look up to see a good-looking guy. He has brown short hair, his sunglasses resting on his head and his eyes. There with a sea-green tint. One of the most beautiful colours to have. I recognize him but I don't know where from. I can smell his cherry lollipop that sits at the side of his mouth mixed with his cologne that smells like vanilla mixed with a tint of cigarettes.

"Umm, if you would like I can show you to them?" I proposed while walking around the counter.

"Hurry up then princess, what are you waiting for I don't have all day. I have things to do and places to be" To say that he doesn't look like he belongs here he certainly has the attitude as well. I roll my eyes not making any note of it.