"You can let it go
You can throw a party full of everyone you know
And not invite your family, 'cause they never showed you love
You don't have to be sorry for leaving and growing up"
When 20 year old Matilda moved down to London after growing up qu...
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Harry
Sitting on the couch with Panda on my lap I watch the rest of the notebook as tears fill my eyes from the ending. I've always wondered what it would be like to spend the rest of my life with a person but I've always thought it would be just me and touring my music and not having time for a family but now I've got a cat and have my girl that has changed everything.
I'm thankful I met Matilda on that roof a year ago otherwise I don't think I would have something to keep me in place. I would have been a mess as my sister left us and no one would have been able to get through to me but I guess the reason I'm not a mess now was because I felt like I needed to look after the people around me. It was the first Christmas without Emily and let's just say it was hard as the day passed. It was like I wanted to talk to her and do the normal jokes but I couldn't as she wasn't here but I just hope she has had a party up there. She would have had a great time without us.
"Harry" I look over to the side of me seeing Matilda in grey joggers and a black crop top making me smile from how pretty she looks.
"Matilda" I say back, raking her body again making her pop her hip out teasing me. I've never really tried crossing further into the boundary of us being a couple as we had just talked it out on Christmas. It was hard but we both got through it even though I could tell on multiple occasions the group knew something had happened but yet they don't know about the biggest secret that we are both keeping. It'll take time for her to come clean to everyone but she will do that on her own terms. I'm not going to force her. We don't really talk about her suffering as everytime I try to bring it up she just shuts me down straight away. I think she still thinks that every time I mention it I still see her as some weak girl who cuts herself, but what she doesn't know is that no matter what I'll always see her as an incredibly strong, independent woman that only needs a shoulder to rely on.
"Are you listening?" She smirks knowing that I heard nothing.
"Yes I am" I mutter making Nala run from my lap making my girl laugh. I smile at the sound I haven't heard in a long time.
"Well I don't think Panda agreed" She continued smirking, picking up the cat that itched to be close to her.
"Well Panda doesn't know what she's doing" I roll my eyes seeing her mutter some sort of apologies about my words into the cat's ear.
"Oh your just jealous that she gets to have my attention"
"And what if I am? Hm?" I stand up walking towards her closing the distance making her chin tilt from the height difference between us both.
"Then it's tuff" she whispers, making my eyes fall to her lips as they softly move with the words she says.
"Is that so?" I lift my finger under her chin making me lean down.
