"You can let it go
You can throw a party full of everyone you know
And not invite your family, 'cause they never showed you love
You don't have to be sorry for leaving and growing up"
When 20 year old Matilda moved down to London after growing up qu...
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Matilda
Waking up to the sound of my phone buzzing on my bedside table. Picking it up and checking the caller ID noticing that it's my sister calling me.
"Happy Birthday Bunny" My sister's happy voice comes through the speaker of my phone. Checking the time I see it's 9am.
"Thanks Teddy" I yawn due to just being woken up.
"How are you doing?" She asks. It's the most dreaded question that people mostly ask people. I know it's just to make a conversation but it's the worst question you could ask someone.
"You know what I'm doing better. I'm not there yet but I'm okay for now at least" I say the last bit under my breath not wanting my sister to hear it.
"Anyway, enough about me. How are you doing?" I ask her wanting to know how it's been since mum has been back.
"Umm I'm okay just having nightmares and sometimes I've woken up from them with a start of a panic attack. Lydia has helped me a lot. We went shopping last week together and then this week I think we are going to hang out by the park round the corner." I love how her facial expressions show excitement when she talks about Lydia. I wish I had a friend like her when I was my sister's age. She's getting nightmares, which are the worst part about it. I could get past seeing what's happened to my mum but after a time I started to get nightmares about it.
"I'm so sorry Teddy if I could have stopped you seeing that I would but obviously she hasn't stopped since I was your age. Only a few more years and you'd be moving out. You can come live with me if you want to?" I smirk at her knowing that she would but she doesn't want to leave her friends behind.
"Matilda I would seriously know at this time I would but I have school here and Lydia is here. I miss you so much and I will visit you during the school holidays I promise" she says with sympathy in her eyes.
"Yeah yeah I know I miss you so much too. I would love to have you in the school holidays if you can or not. Even if you need a week away from everything over there. Phone me I will not hesitate to pick you up and I mean that" seeing tears build in the corner of her eyes but feel guilty that I can't wipe them and give her a hug.
"I forgot to tell you that I have sent you a birthday present-"
"I'm gonna stop you right there missies. I told you that I'm only allowed to buy you birthday and Christmas presents, not you buying them for me. I'm very grateful that you got me whatever you got me but don't spend your money on me, spend it on yourself." I say bringing the bigger sister out of me.
"See I knew you would say that" she laughs which makes me smile.
After catching up more with my sister we said our goodbyes knowing that we both would stay on call together all day if we had the chance due to not seeing each other in person. Feeling tears trail down my cheeks from missing my sister and all the guilt I feel for her. For leaving and for the fact that she has seen the things that I went through. I love her so much and if I lost her I don't know what I would do with myself.
