Aftertaste - A Chris Evans Story

18

I look at the text over and over again as I sit out in the Texas heat. Scott's currently on a call with his manager so only now do I have time to reply to what Chris had sent before we left LA.

Are you happy?

Yep, he's obviously heard the news, seen the pictures. The whole shebang. Now he's reached out.

I swallow and then text him back. Yes x

Good, that's all I want for you x He replies and my heart is thudding. Even if we're not anything more Everly, I still care about you, always will, friend or not x

I message back, Friends always works. I still want you in my life... Even if I can never have him fully. Despite everything, I want to just put all the shit behind us and start again. Friends? x Lets just be adults. We're both in happy relationships after all.

Always x

We can still care about one another. Sure as much as I try I won't fully let go of the past, but I can at least now have some peace that we can maintain friendship as well as our relationships.

What have you been working on lately? I now ask.

Defending Jacob just dropped on Apple TV, had a few weeks promo for that amongst other interviews and the usual stuff. How bout you? x

I HAVE to watch it. I've just wrapped on Downton so I've got a few weeks off. Currently in Austin so some downtime will do me good, although Lucy seems to be churning out potential roles for me like nothing else, so I doubt I'll get much more time to myself! 😂x

😄 You know that's not how it works in this job

I can't help but chuckle to myself a little. As I have found out. Not that I'm complaining though, bloody lucky to be doing what I do

Same here, even if it is anxiety inducing at various points

How you been with that lately? x Part of me hopes it went into overdrive seeing the pictures of me and Scott together. Am I allowed to want that to happen? To reduce him to that? I shouldn't really. I'm not that mean.

You win some, you lose some. x

Yeah and don't I know it.

Pretty much life in general then 😒

You bet it is 😐

I know how badly he suffers with it. When we were on our press tour he was pretty much drawing on my hand to calm himself. That was before 'this is gonna go tits up round 2'.

People always say 'third time lucky' or 'Third time's a charm' but is it really?

I'll never get a third time.

Why the fuck am I even thinking about it anyway? I have it great at the moment. I've learnt from my mistakes, made amends with myself and him.

I have a man who actually loves me who is sitting indoors right now.

I have everything.

I just need to release that hold I still have for him, and at the moment it's just finger by finger, the last few doing all they can to cling to what will never be mine.

And that is what I need to accept, and to appreciate what I do have.

"Look at you all relaxed and sunning yourself" Scott comes out a while later and plants a kiss on my head, then lying on the lounger beside me".

"It's a beautiful view"

"Is from where I'm sitting" he smirks as he looks over to me and I blush.

Chris used to make you blush too when he said things like that.

I push the thought away and now get up, sitting astride him and leaning down for one deep kiss. His hands slide down my bare waist where I only have my bikini on and then fingers tug the string on the top to undo it.

"Fuck, Ever".

"We can all you want to". I smirk

Anything to get the images of Chris and I out of my mind, and it will. The memories have to all fade eventually, it'll just take longer than average though.

"Inside". He says

I shake my head, "nope, right here".

"Lounger might collapse" he grins up at me as he laughs.

"Even better".

I lift myself up so he can remove his shorts and then look down at him teasingly, toying with the string that holds my bikini bottoms in perfect place. "Take 'em off". He now sits up so I'm fully on his lips and kisses my chest. 

With a simple tug they fall away and he slowly lifts me up slightly, then settling down onto him. We both groan as I sink further onto him until he's fully inside of me and then begin to move against one another, his thrusts becoming harder while he guides me up and down on him. 

"You always feel so fucking good Ev". He hits the right spot and I instantly buck against him, a little grin forming on his lips. "Oh there we are..."

Yep...there we are and there I go as I begin to get tipped over the fucking edge. His hand moves down between my legs, thumb moving circles over my clit until I finally soak him, feeling him release into me before we end up catching our breath while trying to tame the aftershocks. 

All the while, in the back of my head I can hear Chris's voice. "Did he satisfy you better than I could, Evermore?"