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11. If I Stay there will be Troubleeee

but if i go there will be double.
so should i stay or should i go

THAT SAYS COMMENTS BY THE WAY IF MY HANDWRITINGS TOO BAD.

WOOHOO LETS GO Y'ALL IM BACK. NOWS WHEN THE REAL STUFF STARTS
Midterms rushed up like a cockroach... that is to say... extremely fast.
YN had other things to worry about, as she had just been fired. She mentally fumed as she remembered the conversation.
"YN, I was looking at the worker profiles, and noticed that I don't have your parental permission... which could result in lots of work for me, as you're a minor." her boss had said.
YN may not ever be able to procure a parental permission, and she never wanted to try. "Oh? I'm pretty sure I gave you one..." She lied.
"Hmmm, well until you get another one, I'll have to put you on unpaid leave."
Well, YN wasn't particularly worried about school, as when it came to academics her memory was impeccable. Except for that one time... YN could have sworn she had seen Johan in between his visit to Big Deal and that fateful day in the park. Oh, Johan. YN mentally beat herself up for forgetting about him. Almost six months had passed, and she still hadn't done anything about him. The memory she was struglling to find made her doubt her cognitive ability. Someone nudged her. It was Daniel.
"Hi YN... so, I was wondering... since you're the top student in the class... Could you help me study?"
"I don't know how much help I would be... But you should ask Jay! He's the one who would probably be able to teach you more."
Daniel turned and asked Jay the same thing. YN winked at Jay behind Daniel's back.
She went to the library with Daniel, Duke, Jiho, Zack, Mira, Yui, Jace, Vasco, and the rest of the architecture group. YN didn't really need to study, and she set on a computer there. She was trying to find the God Dog HQ. Before she could get anywhere, Jace came up.
"YN? Why aren't you studying?"
YN hastily switched tabs. "Haha, I don't really need to... I remember what was taught."
"Great, can you help Vasco? He's struggling..."
"Sure!" The two exited the room, but not before Jace stole one last glance at what YN had been searching up. (She had no time to get back to it after agreeing to tutor Vasco.)
Finally, midterms were over. YN had gotten her usual stellar scores, (rebuilding the confidence in her memory), but was shocked to find out that she and Daniel had tied for top! She didn't care that much, as Daniel had undoubtedly tried harder than YN, although she was confused on how he had gotten better than the class rep and even better than Jay. YN observed as Daniel looked sick and guilty at the sight of the class rep sobbing. He's a strage person.
All of a sudden someone swept her off her feet and into a bone-crushing hug faster than she could react.
"I PASSED YN!"" Vasco boomed.
"Alsdjflkasdhflaksjdfhaklsjdf," YN wheezed.
Vasco gave an uncharacteristically cute chuckle and released her.
"Good stuff Vasco, you worked hard." YN responded, gingerly feeling her ribs. She was definitely going to bruise. Jace patted her shoulder affectionately.
"It was all you," he muttered into her ear, grinning. YN chuckled. A thought set upon her. Jace was smart involved with gangs.
"Hey, Jace," YN asked. "God Dog is the gang in the north right?"
"Right."
"Who's the leader?"
"You probably don't know them but I believe its some guy called Johan Seong. Why?"
YN didn't hear the last part, her pulse started humming the moment she heard Johan's name. He. Was. The. Leader??? She grabbed his shoulders. "I didn't hear right. The leader is Johan Seong?" The guy from my memories and whose dog i returned is a gang leader. Without waiting for Jace's response, she stalked off, needing to organize her thoughts.

***

Then there was the retreat.
"It's gonna be awesome. YN wanna bunk togeth-" Mira started.
"I'm not going." YN interrupted, stretching and leaning back in her chair with a yawn.
"What! Why not?" Zack asked, looking up from his sleeping pose on his desk.
"I have things to do." She replied vaguely. "Have fun for me." Jay tried to change her mind with some nods.
"C'mon, it'll be fun!" Mira tried to convince.
"Don't worry, I'll be fine here. All of you guys have fun."

***

YN had to go through the same process with her brother., although he was more aware of the situation.
"YN, what are you planning?" Eli asked.
"Nothing, I just have something pressing I need to take care of."
"YN, I appreciate you being here for me, and you staying to watch Yenna, but you are planning something else and I can't accept if you are going to do something that will unintentionally endanger Yenna."
"Don't worry, it's just a job interview. I wanted it to be a surprise, but I also don't want to worry you. It's the cafe where Jace works, Star Coffee."
Eli looked instantly relieved. "Can't you reschedule?"
"I tired, but they said now was the only time. And also, I looked up other jobs, but they were the only place that were accepting fifteen-year-olds."
Eli sighed good-naturedly. "I really appreciate this YN, I'm sorry you have such a burden."
"It's no issue, really."

***

Jace was the only one who fully caught on.
"I know what you're planning." he told her.
"What?"
"I know that you're going to find the God Dog HQ. What I don't know is why?"
"And you may never know." YN said curtly. She turned to leave, and Jace attempted to grab her wrist to stop her. He was too slow.
"Wait!" he exclaimed.
YN turned back. "What?"
"Are you going to join the God Dogs?"
"What! No, what gave you that impression?"
"Uh, its the only reason I could think of..." Jace said sheepishly. YN's eyes softened.
"A reasonable assumption. But I told you I had enough of gangs and its true. This for personal reasons... Maybe someday you will find out, but what I am going to do doesn't involve you. So don't worry. Trust me."
Jace was not at all satisfied with her explanation, but decided he could only trust her. And so, the day for leaving for the retreat passed and YN was left alone. Well except for Yenna, who was at daycare. YN dozed off on the couch, having barely slept for the past few weeks. Afterwards, she woke, feeling only slightly rested. YN picked up Yenna from the day care, brought her home, fed her, and put her to sleep. She put on her black hoodie, and black mask, and hoped Yenna would not wake up until she came back. She hadn't fought in a long time, but she could feel the excitement bubbling inside. This. Would. Be. Awesome.

***
By the time she reached the territory, it was already dark. YN pushed off her hood and unhooked the mask, her long wavy hair tumbled around her reddened cheeks and nose, and everytime she blinked it drew attention to her long eyelashes and red lips. She sat in a cafe, and was about to order something before remembering she didn't bring any cash.
YN glanced around the shop, her eyes catching on a particular palindrome. She marveled at her amazing luck as she glimpsed a person wearing a God Dog sweatshirt. She put her mask and hood back on and  followed the person outside.
"Hey!" She called. "Do you know where I can find the God Dog HQ?" she asked. The person turned.
"Why? Are you interested in joining? And what's with the mask you fucker? You sick or some shit?"
YN was mildly insulted by the unwarranted hostility "You cheeky bastard." She growled, lowering her voice. "Show some respect. Where's your leader?" The guy gave a sadistic grin, and YN narrowed her eyes suspiciously.
"So you're going to challenge boss? Let's see if you can even take me! The boy charged with a punch, but YN easily grabbed his wrist as he passed by and kneed him in the face. She was a tiny bit alarmed because he was quite fast.
"You really think I would challenge a boss if I can't beat a weakling like you?" she sneered. She pulled his hoodie off up to his wrists, restraining him. "Now, mind telling me where the HQ is?" Her fingers tightened around his throat. He said nothing, just licked his lips with a crazy glint in his eyes... YN flinched in surprise and immediately released him. She kicked him in the chest.
"Answer me."The boy stuttered out an address. YN kicked him in the head, rendering him unconscious. She felt kind of sullied by the creepy boy. YN put his hoodie on on top of hers. It was a little stuffy, but there was no way she was going to wear that guy's hoodie plain. She headed to the address. Pulling up her mask, she walked in.
"Hey Alec." ANother dude called out. "Dude, what took so long? Your patrol ended nearly an hour ago."
"Ahh, sorry I ran into some trouble." YN said, making her voice deeper. She wondered what the hell she was thinking, walking straight into the wolf's den. "Hey do you know where the boss is? I've got important info."
"Nah he's prolly out with Gun or some schist. You should tell Jin tho. Are you sick man? What's with the mask?"
YN didn't know any Jin. "Just a cough," she said, coughing slightly. "Where's Jin?" The boy nodded to another boy sitting on a couch. YN walked over, trying to imitate the swagger of the god dog members.
"Hey Jin, where's the boss?"
"Out. Got info?"
"Yup. But for him only."
"Dude you know everything goes through me.
"For HIM ONLY."
"You little-" Jin swung his hand, which YN instinctively dodged. "Hey- you're not Alec! Who the hell are you?"

(revisited) Reload, If I stay there will be Trouble, combined