Thomas Shelby imagines-a new chapter

82.Imagination

Everything has a price in this world.For him,his money and business came with a heavy price that he alone had to pay.

It was a price for his soul,his mind,his self control.All that chaos around him made him sick.

He wanted it all to end so badly that he thought ending his life would be the best option.Loosing a close family member Polly Gray who used to assist him in all matters,loosing his brother John,his wife,his daughter...Tommy had no one now

He was left all alone in the house even after Lizzie left with Charlie.Tommy had told everyone,all the maids and workers to stay out of his house and not come back until he said so

Sitting alone on his office floor in the house,by the window through which dull white light of the day came.He watched dust fly around in his room.

He quietly sat down leaning against the wall,with a bottle in his hand staring at a blade from his hat.

He could just take a second and cut himself and all would be gone.It'll all end and he would go to a place he belonged.....hell

Because he knew there was no place for him in heaven

Just as he mustered the courage to bring the blade close to his wrist,a loud crash snapped him back to reality

He looked out the window grabbing his gun quickly.He rushed out of the room raging in anger

"I told you not to fucking come back!FUCKING TOLD YOU!!"he shouted loosing his state of mind in his insanity.

Tommy opened the door of the house,cool air hitting him like a wave.He rushed out to the road from where he saw smoke coming

He pointed his gun but something stopped him.He saw a car that hit his manor wall,a deer standing in the middle of the road now looking at Tommy

He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion when he heard the sound of someone patting there clothes.

Tommy walked a few steps forward when he saw a woman standing up on her boots from the ground,patting her sleeves and dress.Her brown hair covering her face which made him wanting to see who it was who did this

And just like wind she made a turn and she looked directly into his eyes.

He felt like air was knocked out of his throat,the woman was nothing like he'd ever seen.She was by far the most beautiful thing he had ever witnessed on earth

Brown soft hair,luscious skin,pink plum lips with the softest eyes.

"Are you alright?"he asked sighing with disinterest rubbing the hem of his nose.

"What?Oh yes I'm fine just didn't see the deer and-.....did I do that to your wall?"she whispered feeling guilty

Tommy looked back at the wall

"It's alright I'll handle it"he sighed just wanting to go back inside and hide back in his hole.Y/n examined the man's tired eyes,he was truly very handsome she must say but something in his eyes just...

"No please I did this I should pay for this..even though it's not quite needed"she replied eyeing his huge house.

Tommy stared at her quietly for a few seconds until he saw it.Blood was trickling from her leg to the ground.

"Your uh..your leg"he pointed at it.Y/n hummed in question and looked down at it

"Fuck"she mumbled and examined it seeing a big wound on her right leg.

"It's alright I'll drive away to the hospital to treat it.Good day"she replied and turned towards her car just when she saw what condition it was in and stopped