Thomas Shelby imagines-a new chapter

95.Back to black

"I'm not a person that falls in love Mr Shelby"

He smirks at her comment putting his cigarette down as she crossed her arms in front of her and returned him his smirk being sure that she never will fall for anyone

"All we are doing is business.Purely that"

She was a woman who was sure of her words.At least she always believed in that.
But now she was standing at the corner watching how the new barmaid smiles at Tommy's words and how he returns it back but only a little

She placed her cigarette back in her mouth leaning against the wall of the pub feeling her heart shatter inside but still having a calm look on her face

That's how it started

She wanted to kill herself for going against her words and falling for a messed up man.But the truth was he was just like her and that is why she fell so hard for him

But there was no way she was telling him,she couldn't go against her words

So for days she watched as Tommy's and Grace's relationship grows.Months passed by and she had isolated her from everyone and had not seen Tommy for long but only for business reasons

She was quietly smoking in the lobby alone watching as the ghostly strings of smoke flew up in the air.She heard clicking sound of heels

"Miss your mail"her housemaid said keeping the envelopes in front of her.Y/n hummed and leaned forward towards the table and went through the mail

The maid stood by watching her with concerned eyes.Y/n shuffled through the white envelopes until a red one caught her eye

It dropped down on the ground.She bent to pick it up and examined the envelope.She slowly trailed her fingers at the opening and opened it to reveal a card inside

She sighed and took it and turned it around.

The cigarette dropped from her hands as she stopped all movement.

It's was a card with Tommy's name written on it inviting her to the marriage of grace burgess and Thomas Shelby

The housemaid noticed the change in behaviour.Y/n had no emotions on her face except she shuffled through her pocket and took out a cigarette lighting it up and leaned back on the sofa putting her head up and staring at those white ghostly strings again

"Go home Olivia"she said in a husky and dry tone deprived of any emotion

"But miss-

"Take the other maids too I don't want anyone here.Take some rest.Go"she said awfully calmly which made a bad feeling rise in Olivia's stomach

But she couldn't say anything so she left the house with only her there.Y/n stared at the ceiling still,her eyes growing redder every minute

She closed her eyes sitting quietly in the room.The air was cold and chilly,the tension in the room could slice through anyone

All sounds stopped around her and a smile appeared on her lips.A chuckle came from her lips turning into pure insane laughter

Y/n stood up from her seat standing alone and laughing loudly.She ran her hands through her hair and laughed loudly falling on the floor leaning her back against the wall

She laughed and laughed until laughter turned into sobs.She held her head in her hands and cried alone

"Stupid stupid stupid"she sobbed hitting her head throwing away her cigarette.She leaned her head back on the wall and laughed again like a maniac letting tears spill out of her eyes

"Why?"she whispered closing her eyes to only see Tommy's face in front of her.Remembering the time he touched her,that one time when he placed his soft lips on hers and left her shocked

"Why me?"she sobbed putting her head on her knees and engulfing herself into darkness going back to black

"We only said goodbye with words
I died a hundred times

You go back to her
And I go
BACK TO BLACK"