Thomas Shelby imagines-a new chapter

35.there are no accidents

(BIG SPOILER ALERT!!!!DONT READ IF U DONT WANT SPOILERS GUYS!!!)

Y/n had spent most of her life loving tommy.She had cared for him like she had never cared for anyone else.She was his queen.Tommy had always prayed for one single woman and y/n was her

But a man is a man.Tommy was doing business with Oswald Mosley,who introduced his wife to him and Tommy did the same for y/n.He proudly said that this beautiful woman was his wife

But a day on a boat can change it all.

Tommy cheated on y/n and slept with Mosleys wife.He wasn't thinking straight when this happened.He loved y/n so much that he was ready to die for her,but he did it anyways

And he had never regretted something like this in his whole life.Never had he felt so ashamed of himself.If he had the power to turn back time,this was the first thing he would change and maybe just the last

When he reaches home that night,he felt like he was walking on a ground of fire.His heart was beating at such a fast speed that he thought his veins would pop

He opened the doors,and the first thing he saw was y/n sitting on the lobby couch reading a book,looking peaceful and calm.

He knew he wouldn't get away with it and he had to tell her the truth because he always did but he also knew that if he did,he would lose her

"Hello love"tommy cleared his throat,y/n looked up,her face lighting up with happiness,she put the book down and got up

"How are you hon?"she smiled and hugged his neck with her arms and kissed his lips,unexpectedly he kissed her hardly and more deeply like it was the last time he was kissing her

She chuckled and cupped his cheek

"Wow,everything alright hon?"she joked.Tommy didn't smile like he always used to when he saw her.

Even her smile dropped from her face.She pulled away yet still kept her hands on his chest

"Tommy?"

"I need to talk to you y/n"his voice sounding weaker than his deep confident one.Y/n started to get a little worried,he pulled her to the couch and sat her down slowly

He kept his palms on his knees and turned his body to her.He kept quite for a while and stared at the ground

"Tommy you're scaring me what's happening?"she leaned forward on her seat and held his hand.It had never hurt him as much as it did now when she held it

"I-I did something horrible love"he hesitated to speak which was the first time that ever happened and it was not alright for a confident man like Tommy to hesitate

"I-slept with Mosley's wife y/n"he closed his eyes gulping down the venom in the words he said.Y/n's hand dropped from his own

"What?"

"I slept with his wife"he said with his voice shivering.Y/n felt hot tears prick into her eyes,the glow in her face dropped and it was all dull now

"It was an accident y/n.I never wanted to do it I never fucking did"he didn't want to open his eyes to look at him but he did because he had to and when he saw her his heart broke into a billion pieces

"There are no accidents tommy"her voice sounded so broken,hurt,miserable that he couldn't listen to it because he knew he was the one who made it like this

"There are no fucking accidents"she said calmly yet she was hurt

"I'm sorry love.I'm so fucking sorry I don't want to loose you,I can't loose you"she didn't listen and stood up from the sofa

Tommy did it too.Y/n walked away from him silently.

"Y/n wait!"he shouted behind her and held her hand not harshly but not softly too because he was desperate

"Please y/n.Just listen to me alright!"

"I can't Tommy.Not after what you did"she said and walked away from him.Tommy stood there looking at his world shattering in front of his eyes

"Polly"he called for help feeling like he was hallucinating

"Polly?"

The next thing he knew,she had her bags packed and was ready to leave.Tommy came to the door running to stop her and she was already down the steps and her stuff was in the car

"Y/n!Stop!"he shouted and ran down the steps to her.Y/n turned around and looked at him one last time

"I won't Tommy.I can't.What you did will haunt you for days and I won't be there for you.Not until I get over you fucking another married woman when you were married yourself"the words she spoke were harsh but she said then calmly

"Y/n please-

She stopped his words by kissing him one last time,Tommy did want to say or even think about anything that moment,he just wanted her

"Goodbye Tommy"she pulled away and sat in the car.The ground was pulled from under his feet,his pride,his love everything was gone

"FUCK!!!!!!!"he roared slamming his fists on the pillar behind harshly

She was never coming back

Not until she was over this

He called it an accident

But we all know

"THERE ARE NO ACCIDENTS THOMAS SHELBY"