One Deep Love

Chapter 36

Luna's POV

"Gustoo na bang mamatay, ha?! A-ano bang pinag-gagawa mo sa buhay mo sa punto na naging ganito ka na?! Self-harm isn't the answer to your problems! T-t-tumigil ka, genesis. Tumigil ka!" Naiiyak kong ani habang niyuyugyog siya dahil sa katangahan na ginawa niya.

I don't want this. I don't want to see her hurting herself again. I don't ever want to see someone hurt themselves because of depression and anxiety! It is and was never the answer to all of your questions and problems! Death isn't also the best way to stop feeling pain-because pain is normal! It is the proof that you are alive and you have feelings! It is a sin to kill yourself just so you could stop feeling pain...

"Umalis ka na, skye... Umalis ka na." Mahinang banggit nito at nagulat ako ng bigla ako nitong niyugyog habang patuloy pa rin siya sa pag-luha.

"Leave before the bomb explodes! I don't want to kill you... At least, for once I correct one of my mistakes, please..." Nanginginig ang boses niya nang binanggit niya sa akin at mga katagang iyon.

Why...?

"What are you-"

"You have 10 minutes to get out of this place, skye! Leave! Now!" Sigaw nito at tinulak ako palayo sa kanya na siyang ikina-atras ko.

"No! Why would I leave you here?!" Pigil ko sakanya.

"Because you have to! There's no reason in killing you, skye... And I regret all of the things I did to you, so please... Please, just leave me here." Rinig na rinig ang mga hikbi niya sa bawat sulok nang silid pero parang mas dinig pa yata iyon sa taenga ko.

"Hindi ako aalis, genesis. Nangako ako kay briana na ilalabas kita dito nang buhay, kaya sabay tayong aalis! Walang maiiwan! Hindi na!" Pigil luha kong ani at hinila siya para lumabas na kami dito ngunit kaagad niyang binawi ang kamay niya mula sa pagkaka-hawak ko nang marating namin ang pintuan nang silid.

"It's hopeless, skye... 7 minutes left and we can't get out of here together, so I'll stay. I'll just be a burden to you." Pigil nito sa akin at iniwas ang tingin niya.

GENESIS

Umiwas ako ng tingin sa kanya matapos kong sabihin ang mga katagang iyon. Thoughts came running into my mind and I regret all the things that I did. From trying to ruin lyndon and Kaiser's life, for killing sandra and his son, I even put lyndon's life in danger...and I ruined Siren's life. I even involved this innocent child's life who did not do anything bad to me.

I am a very vicious person, that's why....

Ayaw ko nang mag-higanti. She made me remember my little sister's last words before she died.... And I promised, but I broke it. I forgot about my promise because I am blinded by revenge. Gusto kong mag-higanti dahil pinatay nila ang kapatid ko kaya ko nalimutan ang binitawan kong salita sakanya.

'don't take revenge, ate. Don't kill anyone related to that vicious madman because if you do, I will hate you. I will not forgive you if you do something bad, ate.'

God, I'm sorry... I'm so sorry, Blythe! Hindi ko sinasadya! Patawarin mo si ate, bunso. I made an unforgivable sin and I broke my promise. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I'm such an irresponsible older sister, I can't even keep my words that I have said to my little sister before I lost her! Ang putangina ko! You're the worst, genesis! Ang sama-sama mo!!

"You have to come with me, genesis! Briana and britney are waiting for you! They are waiting for us! Come on!" Pilit nito sa akin pero tanging iling lang ang naging sagot ko dahil hindi ko talaga kaya. Pakiramdam ko hindi ko deserve na makalabas pa dito nang buhay. I have to repay everything with my life, that's the only way I can pay for my sins.