Hashtag Boys Series 1: #Awwwit (Liam)

Day 98

(Phone conversation)

01:17 AM

Liam:
(Thick voice) Hmm... Hello..? Miles?

Miles:
(Slurring) Hi, baby... Are you sleeping, baby? 

(Silence)

Liam:
(Swallows) Hmm... Hindi na. Okay ka lang? (Breathes deeply) Ano'ng oras na?

Miles:
I--I don't know. (Laughs softly) I think I have slept... but I remember you and I woke up. (Yawns)

Liam:
Bakit, baby? Hindi ka uli makatulog? (Mutters) Ala-una na pala...

Miles:
Are you okay...?

Liam:
Okay saan?

Miles:
When you saw me earlier... did it hurt? Did I hurt you...?

(Silence)

Liam:
Masakit. (Pause) (Breathes deeply) Pero dahil lang na-miss kita. 

Miles:
I miss you so much, too. I wanted so much to hold you earlier... but I refrained from doing so. Because it might not be appropriate.

Liam:
'Yan din iniisip ko...

Miles:
I'm sorry, baby...

Liam:
Sa'n uli?

Miles:
For everything. Sorry...

Liam:
Hmm...

Miles:
I don't know how to assure you... that I won't hurt you again. Because I still might, you know? In the future? Viv said earlier... when we were drinking... that we're always bound to hurt the people we love... especially when they love us. Love supposed to hurt daw--the good and the bad kind. I've given you the bad kind, right?

Liam:
You've given me all the good kinds, too. Masakit makita ka kanina... dahil mahal kita, dahil na-miss kita, dahil gusto kitang hawakan, dahil pumayat ka, dahil mukha kang malungkot, dahil sa maraming dahil. Masakit mahalin ka, pero mas masakit na hindi ka mahalin. Masakit makita ka, pero mas masakit na hindi. Kaya alam kong wala akong takas sa 'yo. 

Tingin ko, ang pagmamahal, laging complicated. Nasasaktan ka at natatakot ka sa kung saan ka sasaya. Sumasaya ka sa posibleng magbigay sa 'yo ng nakakatakot at ng nakakasakit. Kasi kung saan masaya, do'n din 'yong masakit. Kung ga'no kasaya ang masaya, gano'n din kasakit 'pag masakit na. At magulo 'yon pero okay lang. Dumarating minsan 'yong mga gaya mo na susugalan ko sa parehong masaya at masakit. 

Alam kong nasaktan ka rin. Hindi naman dahil ikaw 'yong nakasakit, ligtas ka na sa lahat ng sakit. Kaya 'wag ka nang laging mag-sorry.

Miles:
I should just tell you I love you, 'no? 'Cause I really do love you, Liam. I told everyone I love you. And I will tell everyone how much.

Liam:
Kahit sa 'kin mo lang muna sabihin, puwede naman.

Miles:
Na-miss kita...

Liam:
Na-miss kita.

Miles:
I hope... kahit sabi mo, love is complicated... that in the days to come, I can share with you more happy days than sad and painful ones. I wish our painful days would be shorter than our loving days. 

Liam:
Gawan natin ng paraan.

Miles:
Yes... (Yawns) We should sleep again, baby. I'll ligaw pa later.

Liam:
(Chuckles) Good night, Miss Zombie. I love you.

(Silence)

Miles:
(Swallows) (Whispers) I love you... 

(Silence)

Call ended.