Unexpected you

Chapter 13

Your smile is beautiful...You're beautiful. Why did he go and say that to me? And the way he looked at me when he said it. I'm confused. The ten second gaze into my eyes before we said our goodbyes as I walked out the laundromat, didn't exactly insinuate let's just be friends. Was that a flirty move on his part? No way it could have been. Not after everything he's said about crossing that line. I find myself going crazy tonight wondering if Lucas has all of a sudden become interested in me. Furthermore, I don't understand why I'm allowing this guy to crawl so far deep into my thoughts. It's too much for me at this point in my life. Dammit Lucas! Why did you have to go and tell me those things? All it's doing is making me ignore the common sense side of me. The part that decided it was best to stop pursuing him at all. Now, the part that only knows how to make stupid decisions, is throwing her shoes back on and getting ready for a come back.

Are you staying on this sofa all night, or are you going to come out and hang with us? I hear a muffled voice ask. I remove the cool wash rag off of my eyes to find Jason hovering over me and puffing on a cigarette. Hey Jason. No, I don't plan on staying here all night. I just have a slight headache so I'm giving myself a minute is all. Who's out there anyway? I ask. Same people as always. Tony, Steve and Elaina. Lucas walked by a few minutes ago and mentioned coming back around but I'm not sure if he's actually going to. C'mon Chayenne... come out and sit with us. He begs. I don't know, Jason. I'm not sure if I'm up for it today. I respond and truly mean it. The hangout sessions on my front porch are constant lately and I used to love them, but now, I just get nervous when Lucas comes around. Turning me into a mushy mess in front of everyone. And It doesn't help my situation when we decide to be friends, then he goes and says things to me that make me wonder if he's interested. Why couldn't he have kept those words to himself? I sigh

Jason... Can we talk? I ask as he reaches for the door. Sure, he turns to me and says. What's up? I like Lucas! I blurt out. Oh my!... did I just say that out loud? Oh well. It really is just a matter of time before people start to notice. Isn't it? As obvious as I am with my long glances towards his way every time he's around. That Lucas? Jason asks as he points towards the window. I run to sneak a peak, and find that Lucas has returned and is now talking to Elaina. Yes—that Lucas! I say as I pushed down on his hand. And I need your help. I'm listening. Jason says. Curiosity clear on his face as he sits on the couch.

Im hoping that you would be willing to start up a conversation with Lucas. You know... maybe about girls. Then Perhaps, somewhere in between, you can mention me. Jason cuts me off. And why would I be mentioning you? He asks. Confused and looking a bit nervous. Ask him if he's seeing anyone and then find out what he thinks about me. I finally said. I know that Jason is good friends with Shawn, and saying these things to him might be a stupid move on my part, but I'm obviously that desperate. Hmmm—I don't know, Cheyenne. Lucas doesn't really talk about girls with the guys. Besides, that's not what guys do. We don't sit around and ask each other about girls. Well not unless we're hanging, and a pretty one happens to walk on by. Then maybe we might get into a discussion about the opposite sex. But anyway, I doubt that Lucas will be open to having a conversation regarding you, Chayenne. In case you're unaware, you and I aren't the only ones who know that Shawn wouldn't be too happy about this. And yes, I know you aren't together anymore, but you know him.

I know what I'm asking you to do is risky but I promise you, no one will ever find out. Please Jason, just do me this one little favor... just this once. Jeez Chayenne, couldn't you have been interested in some other guy? Someone any of us didn't know? Or money! Cant you just ask to borrow money? I can definitely help you with that. No! I respond firmly. I don't want money, I want a little fun with him. I say as I pointed towards the window. Please help me. I really do need to know what he thinks before I approach him again. Wait—what do you mean again? Jason questions as he crosses his arms. It really is an embarrassing story and I prefer not to get into the humiliating details. I confess. Oh no! Now I need to know. Jason demands as he sits on the couch once more. Especially if I'm going to help. He adds.

I know Jason and he isn't going to let this go, so I begin to explain the horrid event that caused me to stay in my room for an entire week. Well, we were in Elaina's car. Yes, go on. Jason coaxed. I placed my hand on his, then I tried to come on to him using a cringy sexy voice as I stared into his eyes. NO FUCKING WAY! Jason says with a chuckle. YES! And he basically turned me down. The whole thing was a nightmare. I confessed. Covering my face with both of my hands. It sounds like you both had your moment and it didn't go so well, Chayenne. I don't get it. Why try again? The question is legit and I kinda feel stupid now asking Jason for his help. I hate that Lucas and I shared a moment at the laundromat yesterday. All it did was bring me back to square one, after I had already made my peace with his rejection. Well... kinda.

I have two options here, I can find out what he really thinks of me, or I can move on before I start to look like a damn stalker! I admit to my friend. But I don't know why I can't let this go. There's something about Lucas and I know I just have to have him. Even if all we get to do is share one kiss. Jason looks at me for a few seconds. Wondering if he should help me or not, I imagine. Okay—Why not! Jason says, placing his arm around my shoulders. Lucas is a cool guy and it's not like it'll be anything serious right? Besides, you should have some fun too. I'll talk to him tonight.

Jason kept his word and talked to Lucas, but before the night was over, I learned the outcome was still the same. Lucas did not want to go that route with me. He wasn't interested at all. I don't get it. Am I reading Lucas all wrong? You don't just tell someone they are beautiful and bite your bottom lip the way Lucas did, if you weren't interested or tempted by them. Right? Well.... If I didn't get it then, I should definitely get it now. Lucas isn't interested. Only problem is, I managed to make matters worse. I made Lucas feel uncomfortable yet again, and he left right after his talk with Jason. Leaving his full drink behind.