byler oneshots

56 -youre here

confessed their love right before will moved to cali*
*mike pov*

I get through another day of school, falling onto my bed and immediately starting to cry. Lately it feels like I've been living the same day over and over again, and it takes over all my thoughts.

My anxiety has been getting a lot worse, and Will is still the only one who knows about it, and he's not even here anymore. When I think back the day he left, I begin to cry harder.

I remember when Dustin and Lucas biked off, leaving the two of us alone, sobbing into each other arms and holding on another very close.

"I love you."

Those words made me blush while I was still sobbing, and the anxiety and depression got really bad that night and every night since. It feels like my whole world is falling apart, and I can't even be with the one person who loves me back.

I change into pajamas and eat dinner alone, my parents at work, Holly at daycare, and Nancy off at college. I eat a whole pint of ice cream while watching tv and trying not to think about how empty the spot next to me still feels without Will.

I walk slowly upstairs, taking the phone off my wall. Thank god they put one next to me bed, this way I can be comfortable while talking to Will for hours.

I dial his number by memory, the line only ringing once before being picked up.

"Will!" I say, the sound of his breath filling my heart.

"Mike! Hi!" Will says excitedly. I can immediately feel myself melt into my bed.

"How are you?" he asks, tears being swallowed back at the thought of him hundreds of miles away.

"I uh - I'm not great." I say, my voice breaking off.

"Mike, what's wrong?" Will asks. The sadness in his voice sends me over the edge and I begin to cry.

"My - my anxiety is getting really bad without you. I miss you more than anything, Will." I cry into the phone. I hear him let out a sad sigh which makes me even more upset.

"Oh, Mike. I'm so sorry. God I wish more than anything that I was there with you. Just know that I'm always thinking about you. Talk to me about what's been going on." Will says, comfort in his voice.

"School has been really hard. Lucas is always playing basketball, Dustin is busy with Hellfire, which I like, but I have barely any motivation to get up and go to school, much less be in a club or play a sport." I cry.

"I know. I get that." Will says softly.

"And I just am tired of the same routine every day, and I wanna see you. You're the only person who gets it." I cry.

I fall asleep to the sound of his voice, the phone sitting next to my pillow.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It's been a few weeks, and it hasn't gotten better, but I've been calling Will almost every night, except last night he was all shifty and said he couldn't talk long.

"Michael! Get dressed! You're coming grocery shopping!" my mom yells from downstairs. I groan loudly in response, getting dressed in jeans and a sweater and walking down the staircase, but when I turn into the kitchen, Joyce and my mom are talking, Nancy and Jonathan are sitting at the table, and Will is leaning with his back against the counter.

I immediately begin to cry and bury my head in my hands, Will's arms wrapping around me. It takes everything in me not to collapse, but he keeps me upright.

"Hi." he says.

"Will." I cry into his shoulder. I say quick hi's to the others, and pull Will up to my room, kissing him hard.

"I can't believe you're here."

Accidentally put this on my boreo oneshots first so sorry lol