Tears [Carlos x Lando]

13. A FUCKING LIAR.

Today is the last race of carlos in mclaren. I will really miss him, he was a great teammate of course, i mean he's my boyfriend but i'm scared that we both won't see each other as much as we used to.

Our race was great carlos ended up 6th and i 8th. I went straight to carlos but as i wanted to congrate him george pushed me to the side and talked with carlos instead. Carlos didn't notice because many drivers were arround him. I sighed and just left, i told my PR-Manager, Charlotte. That i wasn't feeling well and i wanted to cancel the interviews and meetings. "But Lando you have a lot of interviews we can't cancel them'' she says. ''My stomach hurts really much i would like to go to my hotel.'' I say and she nods. ''Should i call someone to drive you if it's that bad?'' she asks me and i shake my head. ''I will make it home safe'' i say and make my way to my car. Many paparazzi followed me and i was angry because of it. ''I don't feel well. I would like to rest sorry.'' i say and walk faster to my car. I hop into it and drive to my hotel. 

As i park the car i sit in it for a while. I'm not mad that carlos didn't notice me i just don't want him to leave mclaren, i know it's selfish to say that. And i won't tell him, ferrari is good for his future. I tell myself and go out of the car. I enter the hotel and go to my room. I change my clothes and lay down. I fell asleep insteadly. 

When i woke up it was still night and carlos still wasn't home, i didn't get any message from him. I open instagram and see he has posted a story i look at it and i saw him making party with a few drivers. There was charles, lewis, fernando and.. george. I look through his storys. Then i look at lewis storys and i see how close george and carlos are. really close. i look at lewis next story and i see how george gave carlos a kiss on his cheek and how he holds his hand. My eyes got watery and i dropped my phone on the bed. Now my stomach really hurts. Many tears roll down my cheek. I know that they are drunk and it was only a kiss on the cheek but that hurt. Like really bad. 

I open the chat from me and carlos and i text him. 

lando: 'I will be at max's i don't feel good.'

I put on some jeans and a shirt and i text max.

lando: 'which room r u. I don't feel well. at all.'

Max: 'room 304.' 

I put on my shoes and go to his room i knock on his door and daniel opens it. Daniel sees my teary eyes and asks ''Oh my god lando! What happend? Come in please.'' he says and we both go inside. We go to the couch where max was sitting and he jumps up ''Lando! What happend?!'' He asks and makes me sit down. I take my phone out and open lewis story. I hand it to max and daniel and they look at it. ''Huh i don't understand? are you mad that carlos is out with his friends?'' max asks and daniel gasps as he looks at the story again. Max looks at daniel ''Look at carlos and george!'' he says and he plays the video again. Max also gasps and looks at me. They give me back my phone and daniel sits down next to me and hugs me. ''Lando, I'm so sorry.. i know it hurts but it was only a kiss on the cheek i bet carlos was mad at him after that.'' daniel says and i got a new message. I took my phone and see it's a message from george.  My stomach flips and i start to shake as i open it. It's a picture. A.. A picture.. of them kissing. I drop my phone down on the floor and started started sobbing loudly. max was startled when i suddenly started crying really bad and picked up my phone off the floor. His eyes widen and he looks shocked at the phone. I can't stop crying and sobbing and he takes me into his arms while he hands daniel my phone. He looks as shocked as max and also hugs me. I feel it coming up my throat and i stand up to run to max's toilet. I throw up and cry even more. Daniel runs after me  and sits down next to me. I throw up again. Max rushes to the kitchen and gets a glass of water and some pills. He hands me them and says ''This will make you stop throwing up.'' I try to take it but my shaky hands make the glass fall down on the floor, max rushes to the kitchen and gets me another glass and helps me drink this time. They put me into a position where i won't throw up so the pill stays inside of me. 

The pill helped me with my stomach but i was still shaking like crazy and breathing irregular. Daniel went down to the lobby to get me a bag to breath in. It hurts so much i can't breath, my tears hurt my stomach hurts my heart hurts. Daniel was fast here again and gave me a bag to breath in. IT helped but it took really long. I was now laying in the bed of daniel and max. Suddenly the doorbell rang. i wanted to stand up but i couldn't i felt so weak. I heared carlos voice and looked at the bedroom door in fear. When i saw the doorknob go down, i felt like throwing up again. When the door opend max entered it and looked at him in releave. ''Uh.. well. Carlos is here and he wants to talk to you immediatly. Do you want to talk to him or not?'' Max asks me and i shook my head. He nodded and left the bedroom again.

I couldn't sleep at all. it was already morning and i took my phone. I have 50 messages from carlos, and 78 calls from him. I throw my phone on the ground and i started to cry and yell at it. i kicked my phone against the wall and i fell to the ground. Max rushed to me and gave me a hug. ''shh, you are having a panic attack again. Everything will be alright i promise.'' I push max away and started crying hysterical. I punched the wall and screamed at it max tried to calm me down but i punched him daniel rushed into the room and both max and him layed me down to the floor. Max looks at me really worried his eyes are full of fear. He looks away and daniel puts a bag on my mouth where i breath until i gathered myself. As i sit up i apology immediatly ''M-Max i'm so sorry i didn't mean to punch you i am so sorry i couldn't stop myself it hurt so much, i am so sorry'' i say and he shakes his head ''Lando. Don't apologize. I know you aren't doing it on purpose and it isn't your fault.'' he says calmly. ''Lando i can't look at you like that. I have never seen you in such a terrible state. You have to talk to carlos you have to hear the full story.'' he says slowly. I shake my head and i start to shake again. ''Lando, he's waiting infront of the doors for hours and he told me what happend.'' max says. ''HE IS A LIAR A FUCKING LIAR HE IS A CHEATER!!'' I started to scream again. I can't do this anymore. i thought he loved me.. it hurts so much. i only feel pain. My heart hurts my soul hearts. I don't want to live anymore.