Tears [Carlos x Lando]

27. worth nothing

It's race day and I am really nervous. I'm starting 4th and carlos is right infront of me. We sat in the car and waited for the lights to go off. When they went off we started. I had a pretty good start I stayed 4th behind carlos but no one could overtake me.

In the 50th lap lewis crashed into the wall, "Oh god, is he okay?" I ask the radio. "He isn't injured he just can't continue to race." The team radio says. I'm glad that he is fine. That ment carlos was now 2nd and I was 3rd. The safety car was now out and we all drove behind it. Max made a pitstop but right as he entered it, the safety car was gone. Carlos was now first! I was pretty close to him but i couldn't manage to overtake him. In the 67th lap i had a chance to overtake carlos because he made a mistake, as i tried to overtake him, carlos braked early to steer into the curve. I wanted to brake but it was too late i crashed right into him with much speed and we hit the wall. Oh no, i didn't mean to crash into him! Fuck! When I opened my eyes I felt pain, I ignored it as i got out of the car. Carlos also got out of the car and he stomps to me. "YOU RUINED MY FUCKING RACE! I COULD'VE WON IN THE FIRST TIME OF MY LIFE AND OF COURSE YOU RUINED IT!" He screams at me and i stare into his eyes. "C-Carlos i.. i didn't mea-" i step closer to him but he pushes me away. "SHUT THE FUCK UP! YOUR APOLOGIESES ARE USELESS!! YOU RUINED EVERYTHING! YOU ALWAYS RUIN EVERYTHING!!! FUCK YOU LANDO!" He screams at me. My eyes tear up and i stare at him. "C-Carlos it was a-a accident.." i say. "SHUT THE FUCK UP LANDO! YOU ARE USELESS! YOU DESTROYED MY DREAMS!" He shouts at me as he pushes me and i fall down on the ground. He leaves in rage. I watch him leave and tears roll down my cheek. I take off my helmet and i throw it onto the ground as i stand up. When I step forward i begin to feel dizzy but i don't care. Some marshalls ran up to me but i ignored them. Those words hurt, but he is right isn't he.. I walk off the grid and many interviewers run after me. I try my best to ignore them all. But then i lost it. "JUST LEAVE ME FUCKING ALONE!" I scream at them and they stare at me. I shake my head and i turn arround to leave. I sit down on the ground near the track. I feel too dizzy to walk. I need a break. The race has now ended and max has won. I look up on the big screen and i see carlos is getting interviewed. I listen to what he's talking closely.

'the interview'

"Hello carlos! Nice having you here, We have some questions for you" The interviewer says.

"mhm. go ahead." carlos says pissed off.

"What happend with lando?" The interviewer asks.

Carlos rolls his eyes. "What do you think happend? That idiot crashed into me." Carlos says.

"So you blame it on Lando?" The interviewer asks.

"Yes it's his fucking fault, he ruined my race. I could've won and he destroyed the best race of my life" Carlos says as he tries not to shout.

"But you braked too early." the interviewer says.

"I don't fucking care, it's his fault alone his fault." carlos says.

"Aren't you married to him? You love and need him." the interviewer says.

"I don't." carlos says and leaves.

'Interview ends'

I stare at the screen with my teary eyes. I start to sob in my hands. I stand up and I storm off. I walk through the crowded pitlane and i push everyone who runs after me away. When I made it to the end i saw carlos standing there. When carlos looked up to me to see my eyes full of tears, i saw regret in his eyes. I walked over to him and i slapped him accross his face. He stared down to the ground as i left him standing alone. I rushed to the exit but someone grabbed my hand. I turn arround to see daniel looking worried at me. "Lando.." He says as he pulls me in for a hug and i cry in his arms. I pull away and i wipe my tears away. "Please just leave me alone.." i whisper. "I will drive you home, you can't drive like this." he says and i sigh. "I can." i say and i continue walking. Daniel trys to run after me but fans stop him. I storm to my car and i enter it. I lean my head against the steering wheel as i start to sob again. Why did he say all this? Does he really mean it?.. he.. doesn't love me?.. I start to cry harder. I hear a knock on my window and i move my head to it. I see carlos. Carlos eyes widen as he sees how much i cried. He tries to open the car door but it's locked. "Lando open it please." he says but i shake my head. I start the car and i drive away. It's hard to see much with my teary eyes but i manage to arrive at our hotel. When I parked the car, i enter the hotel. I stare at the ground to avoid eye contact. I go into my hotel room and i try to calm myself down. I sit down on the couch and i try to breath regularly again.

After some time i heared a knock on my door but i didn't answer. I just want to be alone. Why can't they leave me alone? "lando please i'm begging you, open the door." Carlos says. I cover my ears with my Hands. "Leave. Leave! LEAVE!" i say. Carlos keeps knocking and i stand up to open the door. "I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!" I scream at carlos and he looks at me. "Lando i.. didn't mea-" carlos trys to say. "Your apologizes are useless. you said that to me remember?" i say and carlos looks down to the ground. He tries to take my hand but i pull it away. "lando.. i really didn't mean to say all those things.. i was just angry.." carlos says. I stare into carlos eyes as my eyes tear up again. "I never want to see you and i never want to miss you again." i say. "Lando please.. i love you." carlos says "WHEN YOU'RE ANGRY YOU'RE A JERK AND YOU TREAT ME LIKE I'M WORTH NOTHING!!" i scream at him as i break down. He knees down to me. He pulls me into his arms but i punch him. He keeps holding me and i stop punching him i just continue to cry more. "You're right lando. I am a big jerk when i'm angry.. i can't control myself when i'm angry.." he says. "T-Thats not an excuse.. carlos." i say. "I know, and i'm not trying to turn it into a excuse. I have problems with my anger and i want to fix it. I love you lando, with every inch of my heart and i need you. I am nothing without you. I can't live without you." he says as he pets my head. "why should i b-believe you?" i whisper as i push him off me. "I will go to therapy." he says and i look at him. "It's okay if you can't forgive me, i just want you to know that i love you, really." he says as he wipes my tears away. "I will give you some space now." he says as he stands up but i take his hand. He looks down to me confused. "please.. don't leave." i say. "of course i will stay if you want.." Carlos says as he knees down. "do you want to go inside?" he asks me and i nod. Carlos picks me up and he lays me down on our bedroom carefully. He sits down next to me as he places his hand on my arm. "you.. saw the interview?" he asks me. I pause before i nod. "I lied. I just let my anger out on you, that's really not okay of course but i love you lando, never forget that." he says and i nod. Carlos places his hand on my chin and makes me look at him "Never ever forget it lando. Whatever i do, i love you more than anyone. I love you more than i love myself. I know you can't forgive me so fast and that's alright." he says. I pull him to me and i cuddle him. "carlos.." i whisper. "yes love?" he says. "i-i am sorry for crashing into you.. i didn't mean to really.. i couldn't brake so fast.." i say. "Lando it's not alone your fault, i was the one who braked too early.. let's just forget it, you are more important than a stupid race." he says and i kiss him softly.