Tears [Carlos x Lando]

3. Thoughts.

He's everywhere.

He's everything.

Every single thing became carlos.

It's consuming me.

My thoughts are carlos.

It has already been months since i first met carlos, and we nearly saw each other every day. It doesn't matter where i am, when i close my eyes i see carlos. I am totally in love with him, i really tried not to fall in love but i can't help it. Since days i can't sleep properly, because i think of carlos. I really don't know if he even likes me back. He often acts like it. But he kinda acts like it more with george. What if he likes george? I mean they are really close..

"Earth to lando! You're  daydreaming the whole day!" Max Verstappen says and waves his hand in front of my face. "Oh uhm, sorry.." max raises an eyebrow. "Lando you've been acting so weird lately. Are you okay?" He asks me. "Oh no, sorry. I'm just a big tierd i guess" i reply. "Lando i know that you're lying. You know you can tell me anything, we've already been friends for ages." Max says and looks me in my eyes. I am not sure if i should tell him, i mean i trust him but i don't think that it's that important is it? "Lando answer me. Please tell me what's wrong." He says. I sigh "Well, how should i tell you this.. I uh. I really like Carlos. I can't stop thinking of him" I stand up and walk nervously the room up and down. "No matter where i am or what i do, he is in my thoughts. My thoughts are carlos! I am trying to concentrate and listen to my PR-Manager. But i can't." i say. "Lando, calm down. It's okay to like someone." max replies. "But max, I don't think he even likes me. I think he likes george i mean. Did you see the way he looks at him?!!" I say. I sit down next to him. "Lando. Did you even see the way he looks at you?" I look at him confused. "What do you mean?" Max smiles and says. "Lando, he always looks at you. Even when i am talking with him he looks at you. Also he always protects you when george is mean to you and he always smiles when you enter the room" I look down at the floor. I didn't even notice that all. Max continues talking. "Lando, you really don't have to worry. I think he likes you. You should confess your feelings to him." I look at max in shock. "No. I can't max. I am way to scared to do that. When he doesn't like me. Our whole friendship is destroyed" i say. "You should do whatever you want. But you know, if you really want him, then do it before it's too late." Max says and puts his hand on my shoulder. "I have to go now, i have to go to some interviews but if you need someone to talk i'm always here for you." Max stands up and leaves.

I should better go too now, i have a few interviews waiting for me too. I get dressed and leave my room to go to the lobby. When i got down i saw carlos there with.. george. They are standing really close to each other. i'll better just ignore them and walk past them. As i tried to walk past them carlos suddenly shouts my name. I sigh and turn to them. "Hey lando! i've waited for you!" Carlos says with a smile. I started to smile too but then george said harsh , "Uhm Lando you are interrupting us we were talking? Leave." "Oh sorry.." My smile disappears and i turn arround to leave. Carlos grabs my Hand "No! You are not interrupting us. George what the hell are you talking?" george only rolls his eyes. "Do you maybe want to go play golf with us?" Carlos asks. I would actually really love to but not.. with george. "Carlos i don't want to go golfing with that annoying brat!" george says. Carlos turns to george and angrily says "George he is not an annoying brat! Stop being fucking rude for once!!" Carlos looks back at me. "well. I have some interviews anyways.. so don't bother going alone." i say and turn arround to leave "But-" carlos says but he gets interrupted by george and takes his hand. "Carlos we don't need him."              wow. that hurt. they're also holding hands..

After all the interviews i went straight home. I layed down in my bed and burried myself in my blanket. The last hope is gone. I'm pretty sure he and george have something going on. I mean yes, he is defending me but it's only because he is nice. I really like carlos, it hurts so much that he doesn't like me back. I suddenly hear a knock on my door. I am way too lazy to open it. I will just keep laying here. The knocks don't stop but i ignore them. I wish I was george, i wish that carlos would like me. But why does he like george! what does george have that i don't. I feel a tear running down my eyes. The door suddenly opens. Who is that?! I turn arround to see who it is. i see carlos. Carlos practically runs to me. "Lando! What's wrong? Why are you crying?" He looks at me a lifts my face up. I fastly wipe my tear away "Uh. i'm not crying. everything is alright." i say. "Lando. Stop lying, what's wrong? Is it because george was mean to you?" he asks. I stay quiet. I don't want to answer him. I don't want him here right now. Carlos sighs and takes me into his arms. "Lando, i am always here for you, if you don't want to tell me what's wrong, it's okay. If it's because of george i will tell him to stop. i'm sorry that he is rude to you, i don't know what his problem is, he is actually a really nice guy." i am the problem carlos. "Thank you." i say quietly. "Do you want me to stay here?" he asks me. I love to spend time with carlos but i want to be alone. I don't want him to question more things. I don't want him to see me cry. "I think i need some time alone. I will see you tomorrow." I can tell that carlos is a bit sad because of my answer. He says "Okay, but if you need me you know where i am." and he leaves

I want you carlos.