Tears [Carlos x Lando]

21. Leave me alone!

I woke up from a nap as i hear voices in the living room. I rub my eyes and sit up. I go into the living room and see there carlos, with.. george. I stare at them and george looks annoyed to me. Carlos stands up and goes to me. „Is it okay if george stays here for a while? He isn't feeling well." carlos asks me and i shake my head. „No." i say. „Lando. Don't be rude." carlos says quietly. „I said no." i repeat. Carlos takes my hand and we go to our bedroom. „Lando one of his friends passed away and he doesn't feel good." carlos says. „And how is that your business?" i ask him. „he is my frien-" carlos tries to say. „He fucking kissed you and sent me a picture. It hurt me so much that i threw up the whole time, didn't eat, didn't sleep etc." i say angrily as i interrupt him. „Lando that was months ago, he was drunk." carlos says. „I tried to kill myself." i say with tears in my eyes. „BECAUSE OF HIM!" i shout. Carlos is quiet for a moment. „You are way to overdramatic, it was only a kiss and you tried to kill yourself because of that? Seriously." he says. He insteadly regrets his words when tears roll down my eyes. „Lando i didn't mean t-" he tries to say as he comes closer but i slap him. I start to sob and push him away. I take my jacket and i storm out of our house. I start to run to the car, as tears roll down my cheek. I start the car and i drive away, as far away as i could.. It's hard to concentrate but i manage it. My eyes were teary the whole time and i could barely see anything so i stopped the car next to the road and i had a meltdown. I started sobbing. My stomach started to hurt badly, i felt it coming up so i got out of the car and i threw up. I don't know what to do. I have no where to go. I only want to be alone. I guess i have to sleep in the car tonight. I get back into the car and i park my car next to a beach. I go to the back of the car and i start to cry while i look at my Engagement ring. His words hurt. He thinks i tried to kill myself for attention or what? My phone starts to ring and i look who it is. It's carlos. I decline the call. I don't have the strenght to listen to him right now, i only want to be alone with myself. Carlos keeps calling and i get really mad. I accept the call. „Lando! I am so sorry.. i didn't mean to say that really!" i hear him say and i roll my eyes. „Why did you say it then. Was that on your mind the whole time?" i ask him and he doesn't reply for a while. „No.. i'm so sorry i just wanted to help geor-" i get angry „GEORGE! GEORGE! GEORGE! IF YOU LOVE HIM SO MUCH THEN MARRY HIM INSTEAD OF ME!" i yell at him while tears roll down my eyes. I end the call and i start to sob again. I had to throw up again so i got out of the car. I felt so weak and dizzy. I decided to go to the beach and i lay down to look at the stars. Why the fuck does he care so much about george. Why? „WHY? WHY WHY!" i scream in the silence.

I sit up again and i sigh when look at the waves. Suddenly i feel a hand on my shoulder and i turn my head to the person in shock. It's carlos. He tries to hug me but i push him away from me and i stand up. „What the fuck do you want carlos?" i say and take one step back. He also stands up and he looks at me. „How did you even find me?" i ask angry. „I know you." he says calmly. „Carlos just leave." i say as i look away. „Lando please.. i really didn't mean to i was just sad for george." he says and i look at him angry. „If you care for george so fucking much then propose to him and love him not me!!" i yell and i take my ring of and i stretch my hand out to him. He takes the ring and I start to cry horribly as i fall down on the ground. Carlos knees down and pulls me too him he hold me close. I start to sob in his chest. I try to push him away from me but he doesn't let me. He takes my shaky hand and puts the ring back on my finger. „Lando. I will never love someone who isn't you. I kicked george out of the house when i realized that you are right. Please forgive me lando.. i love you more than anyone else in this world. I only want you." he says. I stop pushing him away and i hug him. „I'm sorry.. it's my fault not yours. You were right and i was wrong." he whispers in my ear. I look at the ocean and i sigh. „Can you block him." i ask him. He nods and takes out his phone infront of my face. He blocks george everywhere. He hugs me, „i will never hurt you again lando. I'm so sorry." he says. „It's going to be okay.." i say quietly.