Tears [Carlos x Lando]

29. Why do you love me?

Carlos planned something romantic for tonight, and i am really excited. I love to spend time with carlos. He told me i should put on cozy clothes, so i did. He was already waiting in the car for me. I got into the car "Hello mi amour" he says with a smile. "Hello" I say as i lean forward to give him a soft kiss on his cheek. "Are you excited?" He asks me and i nod with a bride smile. "Your are going to love it" he says. "of course i will" i reply. He starts the car and we drive away.

When we arrived the place i could see that it was a car cinema. I look excited to carlos and he looks back at me. "Thats such a good idea carlos! I've always wanted to go to a car cinema!" I say happily. Carlos pays for the tickets and then he parks in our spot. "I prepared the back of the car for us. I folded the seats and i put a mattress with pillows and blankets in it." Carlos says and i look at the back of the car. "That's wonderful carlos!" I say while carlos puts on the right chanel for the movie. We go to the back of the car and i come closer to carlos to snuggle him. He pulls me close and he kisses the top of my head. "I love your carlos" i say and he smiles at me. "I love you too lando" he says. When the movie starts carlos pulls me on him and he covers us in the blanket. I look at his beautiful face while he watches the movie. He is so perfect. I don't deserve him.. at all. Why does he even love me? I am a burden. Wouldn't he be happier without me? I stress him so much because i get in trouble. He deserves a better life. I sigh. "What's wrong love?" he asks me as he looks down to me. "It's nothing. No worries." I say but carlos keeps staing in my eyes. "Lando. Tell me what's wrong." I sit up and he pulls me on his lap. He makes me look at him. "You can talk to me about everything, I'm your husband." he says. "i am only a burden carlos.. it would be easier for you.. without me" i say quietly. "what?! lando.. you're not a burden. You are the best thing that has ever happend to me. You are my everything. You are my world. I cannot live without you. I need you." He says as he hugs me even tight "but.. wouldn't.. wouldn't you be happier with.. george?"i whisper. "Lando. I fucking hate george. After everything he has done to you, you think i will like a psycho like him? I never ever had 'romantic' feelings for him. I want you lando, only you. No one else." Carlos says as he pets my back. "..why?" i ask him. He looks me deep in my eyes when he starts to talk. "Lando.. i love everything about you, especially your personality. You are funny, intelligent and really really cute. I love your smile, i love the way you look at me and i love waking up next to you. You are also really beautiful, you have the most beautiful eyes i've ever seen, i could look at them for hours. I love your curly soft hair. I also love your perfect body.." he puts his hand gently on my waist. "I love the way you're still shy when we make love together. I love your hugs, your kisses and your touches. I want to kiss your scars and insecurities. I love everything about you. I would choose you over anyone in this world. You are my world lando.." he says and i feel how my heart melts. "I love you so much carlos.. so.. so much." i whisper. He kisses my forhead. "Lando?.." he says and i look into his eyes. "what.. what do you love about me?.." he whispers and i smile softly at him as i place my hand gently on his chinn. "I love your personality so much carlos.. you are the nicest person on earth.. you always protect me from everything. I am still so fucking in love with you, i get butterflies when you look at me, when you touch me, when you kiss me. You make me feel so comfortable. I trust you with my whole life. You were there with me when i was at my lowest.. you never left me, even when you were mad at me you were there for me.. you ran after me, you apologized even tho it wasn't your fault. You make me laugh and when i see your smile my heart melts. I love the way you treat me.. you are also so handsome carlos.. i-i love your body.. i-i.. love.. making love with you, i love your touches and how you make me feel." I say shyly and carlos smiles at me softly " ..even tho you're married to me you make sure if it's okay to touch me.. i love your fluffy hair. Carlos.. i can't live without you.. you are my everything.. but i was scared that i'm just a burden for you.." Carlos pulls me in to kiss me softly. "You aren't and won't be a burden ever love.." he says. "Carlos?.. is there a thing you hate about me?" I ask him and he looks into my eyes. "I hate that you... hate yourself. I can't understand how you can't see how precious you are" carlos says and i hug him tight. He puts his hand on my cheek. "Oh god lando.. i am so in love with you." he says and i lean in to kiss him softly.

When we finished watching the movie, we drove back to our home. "It was beautiful carlos.. really. I enjoy to spend time with you and talk to you" I say when we entered the front door. "I also love to spend time with you mi amour." He says as he pulls me in for a kiss. I put my arms arround his neck and kiss him back. "Let's go sleep, it is already really late." he says and he takes my hand as we go to our bedroom. We got changed and then we layed down on our bed. I came closer to carlos to cuddle him and he puts his arms arround me when we both then fall asleep.