HIS WINE (BL FantaSeries 1)

His Wine 36

Then I realized, I wasn't talking to an ordinary person. Everything seems ethereal.

"Am I dead?!"

"Oo, maliban kung malalaman ko kung ano ang tungo mo dito." He answered. I looked up without a central point to focus on.

Ano nga ba ang tungo ko dito? What am I fighting? 

I have selfish thoughts overflowing in my head, the need of someone, the need of comfort, the need of acceptance, the need of family and a love one. I need Mardav but...

"I need you to forgive me, us, the descendants of Judas Iscariot. I know he betrayed you, I know I'm not worth it but I'm asking for forgiveness on his behalf. I realized that what they are been doing is so wrong, war is not the solution to a problem but asking forgiveness and humility and I don't want to be like them. All I want is your acceptance and your pardon, and you have the right to judge us... I don't know what will happen next but I hope it's in your favor."

"Nakita ko ang kabutihan at kadalisayan sa iyong puso kaya ako, ang Panginoon, ay pagpapalain ka at ang lahat ng iyong dugo ng kapatawaran at kalayaan. Nawa'y mabuhay ka tulad ng tao at mamatay tulad ng tao at maging aking lingkod, ngayon at magpakailanman"

A power suddenly came out from my heart and lightness spread throughout the land. The mighty lightness causes my eyes to close and when its safe to open I saw everything in perfect purity as if the place is a little heaven and I'm surprised to see myself in white and every people that is facing me.

When they saw my face, they slowly kneeled and bow themselves and this included Marianito. 

"Pinagpapala ka ng panginoon at dapat mong pukawin ito tulad ng iyong mga ninuno. Sumainyo nawa ang diyos." Gabrielle said still floating in the air with the rest of the angels.

"I won't" I answered and they flew away. The people rise and I saw their humanly faces as if new born babies with delicate skins.

"Master Blase" Marianito started.

"Don't call me master, I'm not worth it. Everything we are doing is not right, fighting is not the answer but all we have to do is to lower ourselves. I ask Him for forgiveness and he give us freedom. Now on you have no master to serve, you no longer an ally to me or my future generations. You are all human now, you have the freedom to go to the human world or nurture this world, our world!"

All of them rejoiced and shouts in happiness but pain spurts in my heart. I can't see him. Mardav.