JEFF
I decide to follow my manager's advice and attend the show in Bangkok. Bible and the rest of the guys are there to see me off when I leave and ignore their cheers when I pull my boyfriend into a hug.
"I'll see you soon, okay?" I whisper, placing a soft kiss on his cheek before pecking his lips softy.
It's just a few days.
Bible and the rest of the crew will be here for two more days and when Bible comes back, then everything will be back to normal.
However, when I arrive home and text Bible, I am met with silence. He doesn't respond to any of my texts or calls later that night and I figure he probably went to bed early.
Except he doesn't respond to any of my calls the next morning or even after my show late in the evening.
Then my emotions shift from worry to anger when it becomes glaringly obvious that Bible is avoiding me. I can't believe he waited for me to leave before deciding to show me the cold shoulder.
I don't take kindly to his actions and he should realize that I am not one to be ignored.
He should know this by now!
There is no way I am going to let Bible do this to us when we are suddenly on the same page but I can hardly speak to him when I have this much anger in me so I call the one other person that will help with this.
"Hey, if you are calling because you want to speak to Bible, he said he doesn't want to talk to you."
That son of a bitch... I'll deal with him later.
"Great because I am not calling to speak to him either," I snap, the anger in me rising.
"You two are very confusing. If it helps, he's been miserable since you left. Are you sure you don't want me to bully him into speaking with you?"
Part of me knows that Apo would do it if I asked him to but I don't want that. I have every intention of dealing with my own boyfriend when he gets back to Bangkok, for now, I have someone else in mind.
"I want a name, Apo."
"What do you mean?"
"Bible was outed by the gym he goes to. They threatened to sell the footage they have of me and Bible but my agency bought it. I will make sure they go out of business before the end of the week but I remember you mentioned one other person that fueled the fires."
"Oh, yeah but it's not one of the guys, I promise you."
"Do you think it's any of Bible's friends, I remember seeing them one of the nights we went out. I don't know their names but I'm sure..."
"I don't think it's them either."
"Why do you think so?"
"Because they know about you too. If they were to expose Bible, don't you think they would reveal your name too?"
"Maybe they have a grudge on Bible and want to punish him."
"I don't think that is the case..."
I let out a frustrated shout, grabbing the glass from the counter and throwing it against the wall. It shatters in a hundred pieces but it does nothing to calm my flaring temper.
"I. NEED. A. NAME."
"Jeff, look..." Apo's voice is cautious. "Maybe you shouldn't do anything drastic. It'll all fade over in no time."
"Someone just outed my fucking boyfriend and placed his career in danger and what? You expect me to just sit around and wait?"
"Yes. Look, Jeff. Don't chew me out but maybe you need to calm down. Bible would not want you causing mayhem and risking your career or life. What happened? You are always the most level headed one of us."
No, I was the most levelheaded. That was until someone deemed it safe to fuck with Bible and got themselves on my shit list.
"Fine," I hiss. "I will find that person myself and be assured I'll tear them to shred, Apo."
"Wait, you can't just..."
"Tell Bible to keep hiding from me but he should know that he too can't hide forever before I unearth him. And I won't be kind about it."
I hang up before Apo can explain and walk out of the kitchen, ignoring the shards on the floor.
This is what I'd been avoiding. Getting to this point.
Bible always thinks I am cool and can't react or express my feelings clearly but that's because I know my reactions are always explosive.
Uncontrolled.
With my blood boiling and body spoiling for a fight, I storm upstairs to get changed. All the while I think of my boyfriend and fume at the fact that he is locking me out.
Does he think he is doing me a favor? Staying away and for what?
If Bible expects me to accept this lame decision and stay home and in bed moping then he is out of his goddamned mind.
I am going to find the fuckers that put a stain on our relationship, teach them to mind their own fucking business and then get my boyfriend back.
With that in mind, I change out of my clubbing attire and change into a black hoodie and back pants, grabbing my cap just in time...
Then I go hunting.
