A title you held •{Namgi}

70

Today we were driving up to Korea state prison. Today was the day Namjoon met his father after a couple of months. He didn't look nervous or scared.

He kept a straight face as we pulled into the parking lot, as we walked in, down the halls, and even to the very moment he sat in the room by himself waiting for his father arrival.

Are you sure you wanna be alone with him, I asked? Guards will be by don't worry yoongi, Namjoon said. I'll be fine stop worrying I think it should be the other way around, he chuckled.

He pressed a kiss onto my head as we left the room and he sat there waiting for his father to walk in and sit with him.

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I may have put a brave face on infront of the Choi's but honestly I was a little nervous. This was gonna be our first ever interaction in a long time. How would he react?

Would he spit on me and walk out, drop to his knees begging for forgiveness, or be in such a bad mindset he won't even speak.

As more thoughts overcame me I remember I'm here to end any feud with us. To forgive him. Forgiving him is my only way of moving on. Weather he cares or not it means a  greater purpose for me.

Just then the door made that loud buzz and the light turned green. A man who once raised me walked out handcuffs on and in a grey uniform.

His hair slightly long and a full look. More dull than before. He was sat down and the guard soon stepped out the room. My hands tremble a bit as we sat face to face.

Breaking the akaward silence he spoke up.

Morning, he said. Morning, I said.

How have you been, he asked? This was weird. I wasn't expecting him to be so calm and asking day to day questions like so.

I've been doing well actually, I said. Just recently got of a cast, I said. He nodded his head. Sweet, he said. It then grew akaward again.

I don't wanna waste your time, he said. Just say what you need to and all is good, he said. What do you think I'm here to say, I asked?

Your here to tell me how much you resent me, how your life is better without me, I'm no man and less than a coward.

I've been preparing myself for this day and honestly you have every right to say those things, he said. What I did was something so out of charecter of me, he said. I don't know if it was the drinking or the issue but I'm ready to here it, he said.

I'm not here for that, I said. I'm actually here to say that I forgive you, I said. He look perplexed. What, he said?

Forgive me? Why? I almost killed you don't you remember. Your own father!

Yes I do remember, I said. There's never a day that moment won't replay in my mind, I said. I've been through countless therapy sessions talking about those days I spent alone, starving, freezing.

The pain my leg went through for months. And the pain I had to deal with. All of that will not be forgotten cause you hit so hard that it will be on loop for a long time, I said. But something I can do is forgive you.

There's no point in hating you, I said. To this day I still love you and respect you as a father. As a person not so much. But your the man who made me who I am when mom died, when our family left, and when you were at your lowest.

He looked at me dazed. Just like that, he said. I shook my head. And I would like to catch up with you and maybe even ask about that night, I said.

He put his hands on the table as he sat up. I'm all ears Joon, he said. I smiled. Good.