A title you held •{Namgi}

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•A week later•

You ready to go, Yeonjun asked? Yeah, I said as I buckled up. He was driving me to my first therapy session. Appa said this should help a little so why not try it out.

I haven't talked to my friends in a while. They don't even know I went to the hospital a while ago. They stopped asking about me or at least that's what Yeonjun says.

So are you nervous, Yeonjun asked as we rode there? Yeah I am, I said. I'm gonna be telling a stranger my personal issues that even I don't know, I said.

What certain issue are there's, he asked? I looked at him as he made a straight face.

I only ask cause you never really say anything and you even said yourself nothing bothers or hurts you, he asked?

We're you being bullied, he asked? No but I wish it were as simple that, I said. As we got onto the highway I started to get ansty.

Something I've been doing to help these days is relying on cigarettes. I know that it's addicting but It's made me really feel numb and relax.

I haven't had one in three days and I guess it was finally starting to hit. But it's not like I could do it now. Yeonjun was here and knowing him he would blow up about my drug use again.

So I'll just wait later tonight.

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Ok I'll be out here in the waiting room for you ok, Yeonjun said. You ok with that, he asked? I shook my head. Alright I love you hope it goes well, he said. See you, I said.

I walked into the room as I saw a guy sitting in there with a computer. Hey, he said! Are you yoongi, he asked?

Yeah I am, I said. Take a seat great to meet you, he said! My name is Lee, he said. So what brings you here today?

Um I've been through a lot in my life lately and I guess it's finally starting to settle in, I said.

Mind telling me a few of the things, he asked? Well it all started when I was born, I said.

He chuckled a little. No seriously, i said. This is gonna be quite a story, I said.

•Ten minutes later•

Lee sat back as his face was left with an utter expression. I feel very unprofessional right now, he said. I'm sorry for my expression it's just.

I never felt with a client this heavy on difficult situations, he said. And for you to be so young to I'm very sorry young man, he said.

I would say it's fine but we both know it's not, I said. So what's something you want to dig deep in for today, he asked?

How about we really do start from the beginning to recently. And right now your past is your medical issues due to your mother, he said.

Now tell me when your mother has explained to you why you were the way you were how did you take it, he asked?

At first I was in shock but I decided to brush it off, I said. Why, he asked? Cause I thought doing so would just hurt less than admitting it happened to me, I said. Did that work?

I shook my head. Not really, I said. If you could say something to her what would you have said, he asked?

Why. Why didn't you love me the way she did for Yeonjun, I said. Why did you not want me even though both me and him were accidents. What made him so special than me, I said.

It seems that it mostly revolves around you brother, he said. How do you feel about him?

I love him that's my older brother, I said. He's been there more than anyone in my life even when I just got to hang out with him a year and half ago. He's made an impact on me, I said.