A title you held •{Namgi}

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•Flashback chapter• Take a look through our two brothers past and everything that truly went down before and after yoongi was born.

Yeonjun pov:

I can't say I remember a lot but I do remember the good and bad of it all. A lot I choose not to remember. Y'all think my appa was extremely good but honestly there was a time I trusted mom before him.

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Oh shit, Jin said. Hey you don't touch my drinks ok. Those are for me. Say it. For Jin only, he said. Stop calling yourself Jin to him, mom said.

That's your son not a neighbors child. Yeah but that's kinda weird, he said. Plus I never ask to be an appa. Well you did one you decide to sleep with me, she said. You did so too don't pin that on me, he said. Anyways here take him, he said passing me over.

Where are you going now, she complained. I'm going out I rarely get to do so now and days, he said. You go out a lot once can you stay home and help me take care of Yeonjun, she said!

Oh my god shut up, he said. You complain all the time about having to take care of him I told you getting rid of it was an option so you only have yourself to blame, he said. He then shut the door as my mom stormed off and dropped me on the couch.

This is your fault, she said. If I never had you me and him would still be perfect. Now he wants to leave all the time to be a fucking dead beat while I'm here stuck with you.

All I could do was cry I couldn't speak yet since no one really taught me to. Yelling was my only form of talking. She then sat down and held me once more.

I'm sorry, she said. I'm just tired and stress. Having a baby is hard but raising one of worse. I don't think I could ever be pregnant again, she said. Just then she took out a beer and started drinking.

Hours later she was passed out on her floor as I sat playing with blocks. The door open and it was Appa. She could never handle her alcohol, he said chuckling. He then sat on the floor and kissed her head.

I'm sorry baby, he said as his words slurred. He then looked at me. Hey there Yeonjun, he said. Wanna watch TV with me, he said as he picked me up. I'm sure you do.

Come on let's go, he said as he carried us to the room. When he laid on the couch he said me on his chest. This was the first time even I as a baby felt that heart to heart connection. I think he did too.

You know it's kinda odd but cool, he said. I have a son. My own flesh and blood. You look just like me as handsome you can be. I'm sorry that I'm such a dick.

I'm still a kid myself. A irresponsible one who's made many mistakes. But I think you may be the first non mistake I made, he said patting my head. We're gonna have to grow together. You ready for that Yeonjun.

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2 Years later

Where have y'all been, her mother screamed! We have been taking care of Yeonjun the last few days while y'all were where huh, she yelled! Your out leave this house now.

Wait mom no, she cried. No I won't let anymore mistakes live here. Take this baby and leave. I'll be nice and give you $50 but leave, she said.

Mom and appa packed our stuff and ended up finding some really un safe hotel to live. Appa, I mumbled. I started to cry a little. No no please don't cry cause I'd you I will too, he said.

Both of y'all don't cry, mom said. I can't believe she did that. She kicked me out her own daughter and grandson! She then held his stomach in pain and fell. God damn it, she said.

Babe what's wrong what happened, appa asked? This baby it won't stop moving, she said. Baby, appa said!? What baby!

It doesn't matter it's not like we'll see it, she said. Appa then went quite. How long, he asked? Like five months, she said.