ruined, but is it?

can't seem to stop

Moving his head up and down a bit, rain smacked his lips has his eyes were closed, to then slowly open them up look about, he then made a hard face, groaning a bit, rain darted his eyes to then move his arm to his lower back to start to rub to then feel something else, feeling something to his stomach, payu moved a bit to then open his eyes to look about, to then move closer to rain to then move up to start to kiss at his arm.
Rain stopped rubbing his lower to widen his eyes to then slowly turn his head to look over payu to then flex his jaw.
"What the....."
Payu stopped kissing to then move up to eye over rain.
"Don't think...... Having sex can cause memory loss rain."
Rain started to breathe heavily to then turn his head to then lay out back down to the pillow.
"That..... Happened again?"
"Mm.......I know it shouldn't have but...... You really......I should have stopped it...... I'm.... Sorry...."
Payu then moved up to then go about to then find some clothes to place them on.
Rain curled himself in to take in a very deep breathe.
"Payu......"
Payu stopped before the door to then turn to eye over rain .
"Mm?"
"I'm.... Hungry.... Um..... I'm sorry to ask but could you make lunch or..... Dinner..... My lower really hurts....."
Payu nodded.
"Three times.... So close to..... I'll go make food."
Rain signed to then go to his back to place a hand to his forhead to shake his head..
What is wrong with me! How could I......ugh..... And payu is actually apologizing......god! I'm such a fucked up person!
Rain closed his eyes has he felt horrible.
Cleaning up the mess from earlier, payu was before the stove to be making dinner since rain and him took a bit of a nap after there other session.
Slowly moving about, rain was able to go and take a shower, to then go about to get dressed to then eye over his bed to then look to the side to widen his eyes has he saw cum to it.
Rain took in a very deep breathe to then start to take the bedding away.
Hearing the noise, payu plated, to then go about to go to the bedroom to look to rain then the bed to sign.
"Rain let me....."
Rain shook his head.
"I can do this..... Saw to the bed..... Let me just do this."
Payu made a hard face to look down.
"Okay...." He said slowly.
Payu then turned to leave, rain changed the sheets to then limp passed payu to then take the dirties to his washer to then go back to see payu was to the dining room table, he took in a very deep breathe to then go to sit to the other side to eye over him, payu had his hand to his neck to rub to eye down to move his food about.
Rain gulped to then look down.
"Payu.... I'm...."
"Rain....I really don't want to talk about it."
Rain then grabbed his bowl to go to the couch to then eat over there, payu signed at that to then eat his meal alone.
After, payu washed both the dishes to then go about to eye rain was to the couch to be too his side to be looking over the blackness of the television to feel miserable.
"Rain.... Think tonight should be an earlier night."
Rain took in a deep breathe to close his eyes.
"Go to bed payu."
Payu looked over rain to then shake his head to then go to bed, really wishing he could slam the door.
Rain took in very deep breathes has depression started to take hold.
The next morning, payu took in a deep breathe to open his eyes to dart to look to the other side to see the empty ness, sighing he then got slowly up to then go about to take a shower, done he then got dressed, to leave the bedroom to then look about.
"Rain?"
Payu moved about not knowing where rain was to then eye the dining room table to see fresh food, payu made a face to then go about to find rain.
Not checking the weapon room, payu then went there to look over the closed door to then take in a very deep breathe to then open to then crouch, rain was sitting, Criss Cross with his head hung to be playing with his fingers in the back corner to then furrow his brow.
"Did you..... Not find...."
"I found the food. Why are you in here and not out there."
"Already.... Ate......"
"Alone?"
Rain signed.
"Think it's best if we do a lot more things alone given all that has happened......"
Payu took in a very deep inhale to then look down.
"I'm.... Sorry rain."
Rain shook his head.
"No I'm sorry ....I keep...... I'm such a bastard."
Payu looked back up to rain to then get up to go to him to sit right in front.
"You are not! Things...... Happened rain. We are two male human beings living in...... Close encounters....... And What I did began all of this..... It's all my fault......"
Rain looked to payu with a soft face.
"Not all of it. I've contributed. I'm sorry."
Payu darted his eyes over rain to lightly laugh.
"Let's just say we're both guilty here. Mm..... Don't think you've eaten enough, come on. I'll make more "
Payu got up to then move a hand out, rain looked up to the action to sign to then place his hand into payus to then get up a bit to hard.
Rain crushed into payu for them both to look at the other wide eyed, payu like rain both gulped.
"Um..... Guess helped you.... To hard..... Haha...."
Rain darted his eyes over payu to Mark a hard face, he was hard, he could feel it.
"Mm... That you did!"
Payu looked to rain confused to then make a shocked expression, rain had crushed his lips to his, to then wrap his arms about to move his mouth slowly about.
Payu placed his hands to rains hips to then push him off to then eye over him.
"Rain..... What are you...."
Rain breathed hard to then grab payus hand to then place it to his erection.
Payu peered his eyes down.
"Rain...... We really can't do....."
Payu slowly looked up to eye over a hard looking rain.
"Please payu."
Payu gulped to then press his mouth to rains, he couldn't tell him no, especially with what he just said.