Creepy Experiences

All-Time Low.

December 14, 2022

TW: Mentions of Sexual Molestation, Swearing, Yelling, and Just Me Being Emotional. 

Monday night I stayed up late and at 2 am heard a cat yell. It sounded like it had gotten hurt and I went outside to investigate and saw nothing. I later found out that my cat had been attacked. She was limping on her right foot and I noticed she couldn't put much weight on it. She's going to the vet soon to figure out what injuries she has, though I found a new and very suspicious piece of info. Later on in the day, my Dad said that he found some large dog poop near the side of the house. 

There's a higher chance that a dog attacked my cat. My room is also on that side of the house, so that's probably why I heard it really clearly. When I went outside, I checked the front yard, so that's probably why I didn't see anything. Before the attack, I noticed that my cat would always notice someone watching. She would stand in a protective stance and would shield me when I was with her. I also felt watched, so I think she sensed someone. 

It could have been a stray dog, but I've never seen one in my neighborhood. I live in a sort of posh neighborhood. Dogs are always kept on a leash. I regularly go on walks, so I probably would have noticed a stray dog running around in the years that I've lived here. This also means that the dog was probably with someone. That the dog had an owner. Considering they went to the side of my house, they could be a stalker. Going to someone's house at 2 am sounds like stalker behavior. 

That said, there's no concrete proof that it was the work of a cp. They could be someone completely unrelated to them. That said, sxcp has admitted that they use dogs and take them on walks sometimes. 

I want to move on with this topic. This situation is very stressful. I hope my cat gets better. 

On Monday, there was a reason why I was staying up. I was having trouble sleeping since a spirit was being too touchy and they were making me uncomfortable. I told them to stop and fuck off, but they wouldn't. I even tried to use witchcraft to banish him. He did something that made me lose my concentration though, so I couldn't complete the spell. He slowly started to get angry and bit my ears. It stung a little. Since I couldn't sleep, I stayed on my laptop till 3:30 am and tried to sleep. They bothered me more, but I was so tired that I fell asleep by 4 am. I think this spirit may have been Wolf since he tends to bite. 

We communicated a little bit that night too. When I heard my cat, I told him that if he hurt my cat I would kill him. I'm really protective of my pets and I was worried, so I said it on impulse. There was also a point when he had his hand on my head. He has the ability to pass his energy and intent to others when putting his hands on someone's head. I just realized how ironic that is. In the religion I used to practice, blessings would be given like that. 

Earlier on that day, I had been doing self-work and I felt really good. I just felt so light, calm, happy, and at peace, though I noticed a spirit repeatedly putting its hands on my head. Then, later on in the day, I felt cranky and had a really bad mood for no reason. It was like the light energy had been sucked out. That night, I asked Wolf if he had taken the light energy that I had gained that day and he said yes. I started to get really emotional because this had already happened so many times and I felt like I couldn't improve. I felt like if all my hard work and good feelings could be sucked away over and over again, then what hope do I have for long-term happiness?

Then, I felt even worse because I started to see things again. Creepy faces up close, looking at me. A tall shadow coming closer. Guess what I did? I giggled. I tried to be quiet, but I did it for a moment. I eventually stopped, but I feel like I'm going mad. I'm sick of this. They always come back to haunt me. WHAT DO YOU EVEN WANT FROM ME!? MY LIFE SUCKS BECAUSE OF YOU! WHY CANT I BE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE? I DON'T WANT THIS SHIT!

Then, last night Jeff came back. He was very touchy and I told him to go away and fuck off. He doesn't listen. He never listens though. I just pretended to sleep while he was molesting and rubbing up on me. If I had a dollar for every time I have been molested by him and the others, then I'd probably be rich. When is all this shit going to mean something or be worth it? Why do I have to go through this? I'm pretty sure most people don't have to deal with their ex visiting them just to force themselves on them again and again. 

There was a point when I just decided I was going to relax and stop resisting so that I could fall asleep faster. That's when he started to touch me more. I just hate this so much. Why am I just treated like an object? Just an object to their twisted affection. I tell them to stop so many times and they don't. It's not like I can beat them up since they are spirits. I wish them pain. Then there's the fact that they could have hurt my cat and that's unforgivable. My parents aren't even sure if they'll be able to afford surgery, so she could be living with those injuries for the rest of her life. I just feel like I've reached a new low in my life and that things can't get better. The cps always sabotage my life in some way and every time I banish them, they come back as if nothing happened. 

My Mom keeps saying how my dog is probably going to die this year. That he won't make it another year. I've had my pets since I was a kid. I got my dog when I was 3 and my cat at 6. I would be heartbroken if I lost them. I'm just so scared. This is getting long and I cried while writing this. I'm just so empty. I want to lighten up a little and talk to you so that I can distract myself from this.

I just don't want to feel alone now, so feel free to leave some questions here. I'll update on my cat later, so don't ask about her or about any of the things I covered in this chapter. Just go for fun lighthearted questions about me. Like what's my favorite color or something like that. Bye folks.