Creepy Experiences

Not Going To Post

9-3-2022

Last night's post made Toby mad. I could feel the anger really strongly. I started feeling this vibration and heat coming from him. It was really intense. I could also see the energy. It was red.

I was able to snap Toby out of it by teasing him, though he started to act really pervy. It kept me up longer since I was struggling so much. I feel like that was his "payback", since he knew that his outburst wouldn't be as effective.

I wrote the following chapter the day after my last chapter. For some reason, I'm thinking about the cps. Sometimes I wonder how they're doing and it's weird. Today I had a feeling that I should go to this park and I felt like I was being followed. Then, I sat down on a bench and started to think about the cps again. I think they've been trying to get my attention, though I don't want to talk to them.

A few days ago, I even drew the two slender symbols and turned them into eyes. Also about a week ago, something weird happened. I had a major depressive period, though it was stronger than usual. During that period, I'd been having trouble sleeping and the cps had been visiting me. They kept trying to touch me and I kept trying to fight back. I even tried to banish them, though it didn't work. Some days, I would only get five hours of sleep.

I was also really busy with school and I felt really overwhelmed. Now the next thing I'll say might be triggering for some readers, so I'll put a warning.

TW: Suicide Attempt

During one night, I felt really depressed and I cried myself to sleep. It felt even worse with the touching, though I eventually fell asleep. In the morning, I wrote another passage and I decided to finally try to off myself. Now that I look back at it, I felt like an outside energy was clouding my mind and filling me with misery. Another weird thing was that I held no hesitation when I did it.

First, I took 200mg of sodium naproxen and then around 50mg of Benadryl. I felt my heart spasm, though I didn't feel like it was enough so I took a handful and I estimated it was 3000mg of ibuprofen. I went up to my bedroom and didn't have much trouble getting there. Then, I watched some YouTube and I felt myself losing focus. I was struggling to keep my eyes open, so I closed them.

During this ordeal, I kept feeling these pokes as if the spirit with me was checking if I was still alive and then they started holding me. I fell asleep only to wake up later and I tried to get up, but I was so dizzy I fell down. This happened a few times and I got up later just fine. My heart did hurt a little during the experience, but I didn't experience that afterwards.

I'm mainly confused because this is the second time I've survived something life-threatening. Plus it's really weird I didn't have to go to the hospital. I read that high amounts of sodium naproxen would destroy my stomach, yet I haven't had any adverse symptoms since the attempt. It said that my stomach would bleed, though I haven't felt any pain down there.

I theorized that I might have gotten lucky since the dose wasn't high enough, though I really went over the limits and didn't even get any side effects afterwards. It just made me sleep for a few hours and then I was good. I think someone stepped in and did something. The thing is... I was home alone, so my family could not have helped me. At a certain point when I was slightly conscious, I think my sister came back home, though she didn't check on me. She didn't know I was home, since I was supposed to be at school.

Maybe the someone was a spirit, though I'm not sure spirits can help with things like that. Once I heard that Slender could bring people back to life, though I'm not sure he was there since I didn't hear any ringing in my ear. I did a reading and I got a message that the cps stepped in and that they know about my attempt. Adding on, I think the spirit who was poking me was a cp.

Right now I'm feeling really tired, so I'll end here. I want to hear your opinion. Do you think it was pure luck that I survived, or do you think a spirit stepped in?