Creepy Experiences

I guess I was wrong

November 2, 2022

Last night I did not disappear like I thought I would lmao, though something did happen. I had a dream. I woke up in a white room and I noticed that I had a lot of bruises. They were practically everywhere and I didn't know where they came from. Then I remember sitting on a bed with Toby. We were relaxing and joking around. Something weird was said though. I seemed to already be aware of the weird thing. It was about me being put on a spell to always be obedient. Like from that one Princess story. During the conversation, I was ordered to do something and I did it. It wasn't a bad thing more like to just say something funny. That was the dream. 

The idea of me not having freedom of will bothers me. 

Moving on, when I woke up, I did not have any bruises. Another difference from the dream is that I don't like to shave my legs, though in the dream, they were shaven. I feel like the scenario in the dream might have been a snippet of my future of if the cps took me. I wonder why I felt so lighthearted with Toby in the dream. Or maybe I was just masking my true feelings to pretend that I was happy. In order to avoid getting more bruises. A few days ago, I asked Toby if I could see and meet him in real life, though I later on got the message that he didn't feel ready. Maybe the dream was a way of showing an interacting with him where we get along. Anyways, bye.