Friendzoned

Nineteen: I'm nothing....

I'm nothing....

***Joseph***

The bell rang and it was time for lunch, another normal day where I would skip lunch and sleep.

I've given up on the whole see everything now before it's too late or some crap like that because, there's nothing for me to see to be perfectly honest with you, and things haven't really been doing well between Madison and I.

She stopped talking to me for a while now, and I've been spotting her running around, stacks of newspaper in her arms, getting knocked off by jocks and cheerleaders and the douchebag team who think they own the school.

We just stopped talking and to be honest, I'm a little afraid to communicate with her after what I did to her.

I wouldn't know what to say if I did talk to her again.

It would be extremely awkward wouldn't it?

If we look to the bright side though, the jocks aren't bullying me any more, so skipping lunch and just staying out of sight in general was a pretty good idea.

I haven't been talking to my mum too actually....

All I've done was greet her, hug her and that's all.

We just move on with our lives and ignore each other...

The problem so far I suppose is my relationship with my friends and family. I've just been so mean and distant and snappy to them whenever they spoke. But you can't really blame me now can you?

I have the condition and going to the doctors literally all the time, going to school everyday, not communicating with anybody or any of my friends.

I really don't want my friendship...or if she still considers me a friend, to be ruined.

Madison's been a real great friend to me, she's nice, she's pretty, she's edgy and sporty. She's stubborn as well, but I suppose it wouldn't be a surprise for a strong woman like her to be stubborn.

She's also, the only person that's tried to make friends with me.

I pretty much destroyed whatever was left of our friendship...stupid tongue.

It doesn't ever thinks before it acts. It just straight away acts and bite at people.

Maybe I should make an effort to at least talk to Madison today. I wanted to for quite a while now but I'm just a wuss...a big fat wuss that can't even apologize to Madison and talk to her.

Yet again, I was lost in my own little world, barely focusing on the outside world and cold reality. Just trying to forget everything, get all deep.

The sound of heavy books hitting the floor with a loud thud jolted and snapped me back to reality, and I could only follow the sound to know where it was.

Coincidentally, it was Madison who dropped all of those newspapers. It wasn't even really heavy books, just tons of newspapers.

What was she doing running around, looking like a crazy mad woman, just carrying newspapers around? I had not the foggiest of ideas.

I sat still there for a while, contemplating whether I should go over and help her out or not...It was either, I help her with her things and become friends or at least just acquaintances and start over...or I completely ignore her and become even more hated and despised by her.

Oddly and stupidly enough, my choices were leaning closer to being despised than being...friends again.

Don't be such a douche Josh, don't be like that jock.

Maybe she doesn't even want me in particular to help her, maybe she wants someone else to help her.

Someone, anyone instead of me.

In the end, I went over to help her, everyone else was just walking by, some sparing glances at Madison, some sparing glances at her butt...some sparing glances at the newspapers.

"Hey...you need help?" I bent down and helped her take her newspapers up.

"No, I don't need it. But thanks anyway, it's good to know that you thought I needed help when all I dropped were newspapers instead of buying new and expensive glasses. That's real logical." she said, immediately going in for the kill I see.

"I...I didn't, I didn't me-"

"You got them back on your round head anyway, there was no need for my contribution." Madison cuts me off and laughed sarcastically.

"I...I just...I..." I stuttered, my tongue and mouth betraying me.

"No need for an explanation. It's all good now right? I'm just gonna go off and get back to work." she waved me off and walked off without waiting for any sort of response.

She had the final say and ended the conversation.

I guess any option I chose would make her hate me more. I just wanted to help. She didn't have to wave me off and be so snappy.

..........

But...I suppose this was how she felt when I waved her off.

Or lashed out on her and denied her blessing.

I deserved this...

I really did.

I know how she feels now.

At least Madison doesn't completely hate me, at least...things are getting better for us.

But things are still not fully restored between us, we haven't yet reconciled, one of us will have to have the courage to do so.

It's definitely not me.

I'm nothing......

I'm just Joseph Evergreen who freaking destroyed everything that was right in my life.

Everything is ruined slightly.

And all together, it's ruined even more so than just...slightly.

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Gello guys! Welcome back to another update on Friendzoned!

This A/N is gonna be short cause I got homework to do, so we'll chat the next time I update.

I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, things don't seem to be getting any better with Madison and Joseph. Muahaha! Let's hope everything will be good soon...shall we? >:3

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