Friendzoned

Forty-Eight: Madison deserves an explanation.

Madison deserves an explanation.

***Madison***

The rest of the days flew by...school going on as usual, the usual amount of work...the same routine.

The world still spinning...

Maybe the only thing that's really changed in my routine is coming home from school and immediately starting my homework, then once done I would just..sit on my bed, my comforter wrapped tightly around me. For hours, I'd either do nothing or look at my phone, scroll through  social media senselessly.

I felt so...empty. Sometimes I didn't feel anything, I'd just go through my day with no sense of mind.

And of course the world didn't stop and wait for me. The world stops and waits for no one.

That's just how it is.

It feels like...I'm out of touch with the world, and with everyone I was close with.

Joseph stayed at the hospital for another day before being dispatched but he hasn't returned to school yet.

I don't blame him, he just went through something traumatic.

I wish I could see him...

But I don't even know if I can. I don't even know if I want to.

I want to, but then..I don't want to.

Anne has been updating me and my mum about the situation and how he's doing.

Apparently he's really upset. He's almost recovered fully but...he doesn't have the motivation to do anything? I don't know...

My mum wants me to visit him...but..how can I? I can't.

I...I don't want to face him.

I don't know if I can.

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***Joseph***

"Honey you should talk to her. I know you're scared to talk to her but if you don't work it out with Madison, it's going to hurt more for both of you."

I finally caved and told my mum about Madison and our current "dilemma", what happened at the hospital was starting to eat me up and my mum could tell that I was different.

I started talking less, I didn't eat much, dinner would last for only a few minutes because I would quickly finish my meal and leave to my room.

Mind you I was never really the talkative type, but I guess they could sense that I wasn't being myself.

After the incident, my parents started to check up on me more often, they would knock lightly on my door three times, peek their head in my room and ask if I was okay. Suffice it to say, they were worried and paranoid.

I don't blame them, if my child went missing and it turned out that it was a bunch of teens at school who did the deed, I would be pretty paranoid too.

But it's just...I don't know maybe I just feel bad for making them worry so much about me.

I don't want them to be worried all the time. The feeling of worry sucks crap.

As if that wasn't bad enough, I haven't gone to school yet, when I return I'm going to have so much work to catch up on and It would be so awkward seeing Madison around.

I don't know what our relationship is like anymore, does she hate me? Are we still friends? Does she not like me anymore? If I saw her in school, how should I act? Should I just pretend like nothing happened and continue just being her friend, chatting like old times? If I did pretend to talk to her as though nothing happened, would she talk to me as if nothing happened?

Everything is just so confusing!

I don't want us to go back to where we started.

Strangers.

At least if I don't deserve her and I can't be with her I could still be her friend. Being friends with Madison was more than enough for me.

Her friendship was more than enough.

Why is everything...getting worse? Why isn't anything getting better?

I have fully recovered from my physical injuries, those jerks got caught and suspended and I was found....but....

Everything's still just a huge fucking mess.

Shit...

"Honey?"

My mother's voice pulled me out of my thoughts and I turn my head sharply towards her in attention.

"Sorry mum," I realized that my eyes were watery from the tears that were just dying to escape and rubbed them away quickly, "just thinking."

"Honey it's okay to be scared, it's okay to be confused. It's okay to be upset, but you can't keep running from the things that scare you. You need to rise above them all, despite your fears and deal with the problem." My mum advised.

I nodded slowly, still unsure of what to do exactly. Or at least on how I was going to talk to her and whether I could even talk to her.

"You can't keep thinking about this issue in one way, that you're scared to talk to her and she might not even be your friend anymore. If you don't talk to her and sort this out, she will most definitely not be your friend anymore. She helped bring you back to us honey, along with William, she deserves an explanation. She deserves some closure." My mum squeezed my hand in support and encouragement, she was right.

Madison does deserve an explanation.

Madison deserves the best that this world or anyone can give her.

I wrapped my arms around my mother in thanks, "I know what I need to do now, thank you mum." I whispered softly, my eyes starting to water again and my grip around her tightening.

She hugged me back firmly, rubbing my back in comfort and love.

"I know you can do it honey."

Here's to hoping that I can actually do this.

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Hey guys~! I know, I know, it's been way too long where the heck have I been. I'm alive, it's okay I'm here. How have you guys been? I hope everyone's doing well, I've missed you guys!

I truly apologize for how long this chapter took and how short it was. I kind of hit a bit of a writer's block while writing this chapter and just stopped working on it after that.

At this point, my only goal is to finish this book and do my best. Please bear with me everyone! I definitely won't be able to update as much now too because I have my final exams this year.

Pray for me guys and I wish you all the best! Whatever trial you're going through remember that you are loved and you can do it! So many people care and are rooting for you, like me! Never give up and keep doing what you love! <3

Thank you all for everything! Thank you for being so incredibly patient and thank you for reading my story and sticking with me this far. I hope you enjoy the rest of the chapters that have yet to come and please leave your comments or feedback if you have any.

Have a marvelous and beautiful day/night everyone! Stay strong and beautiful! <3 Alyssa

Next update: at this point I can't even say anything anymore, sorry guys

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