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Forty-Two: Back to Misery.

Back to Misery.

***Joseph***

It's official.

Madison is a badass and I wish I had her confidence.

Boy was she ready to punch the lights out of James. So he was the one who posted the video. I can't really say I'm surprised considering he's quite popular and known for his mischief.

Still it sucked that someone would have the audacity to do something like that.

It didn't seem like it was meant to hurt me, but rather to hurt Madison.

She mentioned something about them meeting and him wanting to kiss her when they just met while they were arguing.

That jerk.

Why is everyone so mean.

Okay that's assuming that everyone's mean now, I shouldn't do that. I'd be no better than them if I presume that.

Madison thanked me after James stomped off angrily, the way she thanked me just made me feel so happy.

I mean it's not just that, it's her too.

She makes me happy.

All I could do was smile back and reply with a weak 'Anytime'.

She stayed and lingered around my place for a bit, and we exchanged a knowing look.

It all just felt so nice.

Something better than how I was feeling earlier this morning.

Class soon begins as our homeroom teacher walks in and the rest of the school day flies by like a blur.

Homework here and there. Stares and gossip thrown around. Lessons being taught and information absorbed.

The usual typical school day.

But it's never really as nice and simple as it should be, at least not for me.

I'm the target of everyone.

The target of the jocks.

The target of the cool kids.

All they ever do in their free period in school is torment me.

I've been pushed roughly aside to the lockers at least three times today.

And the notes or messages on my table just keeps increasing.

"Kill yourself." "Why are you here?"

What did I ever do to them?

Shouldn't school be a safe and educational environment rather than a harmful and demotivating one filled with hateful people?

We all came to school to learn something for our future and here they are just spending that time bullying people.

I'm not the only one being tormented here.

Other students are being bullied here too including Madison. But I just seem to get the worst of their treatment.

For Madison, I don't even think the bullies and jackasses bother her. She's just fearless, they make fun of her, she always has a comeback. They shove her rudely aside, she calls them out.

She has no fear.

And me?

I'm scared and afraid and fearful of everything.

Where my life is headed, my relationship with Madison, my future, my eyesight, my cancer, my family.

Everything just terrifies me.