NEVER

F.29

one night later....

"he's gonna love it cause'....i love it." the smirk on gisela's face glowed as we both gawked at my new tattoo through my full body mirror.

today, i made the spontaneous decision of getting a tattoo dedicated to solace. i thought, since i already had his name on my arm, why not ? the tattoo was a sun with angel wings and it was tatted above my butt.

so fitting, right ?

but my anxiety was saying otherwise, i liked it so much but will he like it ?

facing gisela who gazed at me with mi-na in her arms, i pouted lightly....

"you think so ?" i apprehensively asked again, biting the tips of my cheetah print stiletto nails.

"i know so, pretty. can you please stop worrying yourself ? for the last time, he'll love it. that boy loves anything you do, he's literally obsessed with you...." on cue, the sound of gisela's ringtone filled the room causing her to roll her eyes while she answered the phone. "see ? speaking of the devil...."

"y'all were talking about me huh ? where y'all at right now ?" the sound of solace's raspy voice made my ears perk, compelling me to walk to gisela and sit beside her. the sight of that sleazy grin appearing on his face once he noticed my presence made my heart pound. just seeing him cured my itch of needing to be with him, even though i woke up beside him.

fuck, i hate myself every time i selfishly think this way.

"we're still at aina's apartment, we just finished getting dressed." gisela answered and i co-signed by nodding.

"i'm in the middle of soundcheck right now....i'm on in like 30 minutes, i can come get y'all." he suggested and i immediately shook my head.

tonight, dixon booked solace and scott for a last minute show somewhere in manhattan, this time more people are showing up than last time and seeing their fanbase slowly expand brings so much joy to me. i wanted nothing more but for them to live their dream....

"no !" i eagerly spoke up. "you guys need every single minute to practice. we'll be okay, we're leaving now."

"ight' hurry....i miss you angel, i'm not going on stage unless you're here....i'm deadass." the seriousness in his voice made that familiar warm and fuzzy feeling to settle in the pit of my stomach.

solace's hold on me felt stronger than ever. it should be unsettling, but instead, i felt an extreme sense of safety and although, being away from him for long amounts is still unfamiliar for me, his new behavior made his distance so much bearable.

"okay, we're coming...." i couldn't help the blush that sprouted on my cheeks as i answered.

"good, be safe y'all." as soon as solace hung up, a goofy smile sprouted on gisela's face.

"what ?" i quickly asked, my hands flying to my face to hide the blush that wouldn't go away. "why are you looking at me like that ?"

"no reason, i just love seeing you in love."

she hasn't been looking hard enough, she's the one that i've been in love with all along....