Wenclair <3

Why...

After me and Enid wake up from our evening nap, she kisses me again, hugging me. My cheeks feel hot. Im looking down at the floor not wanting to become trapped in her eyes once again.

Enids phone rings. She picks it up and hurries outside, shutting the door and leaving me alone. Again. "What!" I could hear Enid say through the door. "You're here? Right now?" "Okay sure fine, fine. Ill be there in 10."

She runs back in to freshen up before going somewhere. I just stare at her in question, wondering why shes all riled up. "Sorry Wednesday! Got to go!" Enid said, hurrying out and shutting the door behind her. What just happened...? She's leaving again? Why? Where to so quickly...

I try, I try not to question. Not to overthink. Why am I doing this? Is she even interested? Why does she act all lovey dovey and then just up and leave? What is going on with her. I hate this. I hate myself. Maybe its me, my fault.

I walk out to the balcony, watching the moon as its comforting glow lures my eyes. I consider playing my cello, but whats the use? Nothing can get this out of my head. I look down at the yard and see Enid with 3 people. Her mom and dad it looks like, but who is that other person? His laugh sounds, and I immediately know who it is. Tenzin. Tenzin fucking Gray. Why. Why?

I see them talking, all together. Her mother slightly gestures her hand for some reason. Enid nods her head, turns to Tenzin and... and... kisses him. My heart dropped to my stomach. Im just in shock. I cant move, can't breathe, cant think... Why is it like this? What is this new feeling? Overwhelming emotions flood my head and now my eyes. Tears? I dont cry. 'Crying is a waste of time. Crying is a waste of time' I thought to myself. That just made it worse.

They take over my eyes, blinding me in a blurry mess, my tears rapidly flowing down my cheeks. The more I think about it, the more I sob. I wish Thing was here, he had gone back to my house to visit awhile. Before I knew it, I could hear the blissful, calming sound of a guitar strumming. Someones voice echoed through the endless night sky. The moon seemed to glow brighter as if the music enlightened it.

A voice soon sounded. Not singing, but humming. Nevertheless it was beautiful. I hear some sort of-shimmering noise? I look up to see Atlas, swirling and spinning around, half laying on a mat of dark magic. She was high above me, not noticing me as she was very lost in the music.

The tears welled back to me as I looked back down. Enid now holding his fucking hand. Did I do something wrong? Was it me? I sniffled loudly. The music and humming stops. I hear the shimmering sounding to me. "Whats wrong, cosa breve?" the soft voice of Atlas asked. I couldnt bring myself to talk. She landed on the balcony beside me.

Enid was now sitting beside him. Him. Ill kill him. The slow, ruthless, bloody demise will meet him soon if he doesnt back off. But... They kissed. Enid started it. Its me, huh? My fault. My tears spill out even more. Atlas looked down. "Your girlfriend doing something bad?"

"Shes not my girlfriend." I said. 'I wish.' I thought. "oh." Atlas finally said. I watched them. It hurt, so, bad. Something impulsed me. Took control of me. The next thing I knew, I had my arms wrapped around Atlas, sobbing into her lower shoulder. I could tell she didnt know what to do as she slowly hugged me back. She rubbed my back, telling me that its okay, telling me not to worry. Her comfort calmed me down.

I just wanted to be held. Why? I have never done this before. Never. These... Changes have only occurred when it came to Enid. But its all pain. Maybe I needed to be with someone better. Someone like... Never mind. I shouldnt be thinking about this. I love Enid. I have never loved anyone else like this much less 'like' anyone. But she hurt me. So many times. With him. My tears subsided as Atlas still held me. I ever so slightly pulled my head from her shoulder, looking into her eyes. Shes so hard to read. Hard to predict. To know what shes thinking must take skill.

But I knew what I was thinking. I pulled my face close to hers. Atlas pulled away. "Woah. Wednesday. Do you really want to do this? Think about this now. Think about her." She pointed to Enid. Im hurt. Im not thinking now. Just doing. I went up onto my tippy toes, I made our lips meet. Atlas shook a little bit. She was taken a back, stepping one foot backwards. She soon embraced the kiss, holding me as she kissed me again. Atlas pulled away.

"Was that a mistake Wednesday?" I looked at her, then to Enid. "Enid kissing Tenzin was a mistake. But she went in for his kiss." I scoffed angrily. I looked back at Atlas. She seemed concerned. This time I could see it in her eyes. I ignored it. I went in for another kiss. She tasted like candy. We went back into the room. We kissed again, this time Atlas leading. She sat me down on my bed, but didnt do anything further. She knelt down, taking my hands. "Wednesday, I think your confused... You dont want me. In reality, you want her. Dont do this to me, or her."

I pushed her onto the bed with me. "How do I know who I love?" I asked her. "She hurt me, Atlas." I said. "Think about it Wednesday. You love her. Not me. Thats why you were crying so hard about it." She softly answered, looking into my eyes with concern and empathy. "Im not ready yet. I dont want to see her right now." I became enflamed with anger, reimagining their kiss.

I started packing Enid's Essentials and put them by the door. I lay down with Atlas as I finished. Atlas sat against the bedpost, my head on her lap. I feel asleep there. We later heard keys in the door.

Here we go.

[DO NOT PANIC DO NOT WORRY THIS IS NOT HOW IT ENDS. NOT AT ALL.]